DEMON ARMS 2018

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PARANORMAL AND CONTEMPORARY MM EROTIC ROMANCES BY BESTSELLING AUTHOR SADIE SINS

DISCLAIMER

This story contains graphic language and sexually explicit content between men. All sexually active characters in this work are 18 years of age or older. This material is intended for adults only, and should not be viewed by anyone under the age of 18.

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This is a work of fiction. Names, places, characters, and events are all fictitious. Any similarities to real people, places, events, living or dead, are all coincidental.

Hellcat Is A Bestseller! Whoot!

Thank you everyone for the wonderful reviews! 28 and counting; I'm really glad you all liked the book and I'm already plotting the sequel (and the third one.) So I’m kinda a pessimistic asshole and didn’t even realize it. O_o Hellcat hit bestseller in Gay Erotica and Paranormal Erotica while I was bitching about censorship and sex isn’t allowed and all that bullshit. XD Ah, reality check. Amazon might have actually fixed the whole KU thing, too. I’m still not sure what the hell is up with their ads, but I’m seeing erotica ads on erotica now, although they seem to be completely segregated from other genres outside of erotica. As for page reads, they’re counting for a 101,000 word book. I’m not so sure if the same can be said for short fiction, but that could be why so many short books have bonus stories just to be safe. I may be looking back at the program depending. I haven’t looked at writing to market for a long time now; I’ve just been doing my own shit and trying to block the world out. It’s exhausting trying to ‘fit,’ and much easier to ignore it all and just write (the song of a dying artist. @[email protected] Don’t get trapped here.) There are actually a fair amount of erotic novels and novellas in erotica. Well written, sexy books who have cornered the market by providing both story and titillation—such a great word, btw. The majority on the front page of erotica is MF or MFM, but still, that doesn’t mean MM doesn’t have a place; it just means it’s waiting for the opportunity. I’ve been fighting too long, I think. I expect everything to be a battle because I was fighting myself, fighting the mold toxicity, fighting PTSD, fighting my immune system. Blah. Everything has been a battle and although I know I’m on the other side, when I find myself uncertain, I default to old thought patterns. Here’s to not doing that so much. XD When I think about it, I’m actually not sure how to do most things without fighting or exhausting myself. Isn’t it just so much easier to know what you want when someone says you can’t have it? You know what I think about when I bring up PTSD? How I don’t think about PTSD anymore. Fucking winning.

Demon Arms and Sorcerer Slayer

Okay, I’m totally falling in love with this series all over again. You don’t even understand. I forgot how broken and beautiful these characters are, and how much I wanted to build this world. As I go through what’s already written and apply the draft process I developed when writing Hellcat, I’m truly finding the roots of the story, the characters, and bringing the drama in the way I failed to do the first draft. I’m finding the story in the story, and it’s awesome. I’ve decided to tackle The Paranormal Academy For Troubled Boys series a different way. I had two different visions for this series. One was how Demon Arms was presented… sort of. XD Lol, a love story. Except, Wylie didn’t even meet Dorian until so far in, and if I stuck with my initial plan, it would have been even later, but I was trying to follow a format of how most romances are presented. I assumed Sorcerer Slayer and every book that follows would have that same format, which is partly why Sorcerer Slayer is dragging. I keep trying to make it something it’s not. What was Demon Arms supposed to be initially? A serial. A long serial in a paranormal world with drama of soap opera proportions, heartbreak, characters moving back and forth, and just returning to this world again and again. I’m so frustrated with Sorcerer Slayer because I keep trying to make it fit into the ‘boy falls for boy and it’s love so end story’ format, when it’s really a story of many characters who interact, fight crazy stuff outside the safety of the Academy walls, and some fall in love too. This is one of those epic world stories full of mini stories, not some easy to separate romance that only focuses on certain characters at a time. This probably won’t be able to be read as a stand-alone—and let me say how dangerous that can be if you don’t have the fans. O_o Most series try to have each book be a stand alone so someone will pick up any book and hopefully read another because they like it. I will seriously be writing something like Demon Bonded where you can’t just pick up Apprentice Saga and assume you’re going to know all the details, but you can know enough to enjoy the plot. Because that’s what this series really is. It’s new adult paranormal action with romance included, not defined by romance. It’s drama, life, craziness. A TV series instead of made for TV movie. XD I thought I’d be changing to this format by the third book. You know, have the Wylie and Dorian story, the Fox and Vincent story, and then start jumping into the overarching plot while focusing on Theo’s new love, then Justin, Raider, etc, etc. I think I’m taking that jump now instead of fucking around trying to make this book into something it doesn’t want to be. The events of Sorcerer Slayer are going to spread across 2, possibly 3 books by the time it’s done, and they will flow seamlessly into the next book with Adam showing up with a new crate and Wylie and Dorian at Dorian’s family house because we’re going to be with these characters and follow them along as their story unfolds. Each book is going to be between 100,000 - 150,000 words, and I’m pretty fucking sure they’re going to be written much faster now that I’m allowing the story to be what it is, instead of what I thought it should be. No, I am never as fucking smart as I want to be. I do eventually learn. Usually… Hopefully? XD Just to remind everyone, Demon Arms was my first real novel and I had no fucking clue what I was doing then either. If I suddenly know what I’m doing, it’s probably a lie. Just sayin.

Super Secret Project

Also, I’m starting a secret project… well, as secret as a project can be as I blab it to a newsletter of 6000 peeps. XD But yes, I’m hoping to get everything lined up and I can tell you more later. I mean, it’s nothing fantastic—fine, it’s fantastic to me, I’m pretty sure readers will fucking love it, and I’m super excited, and I’m going to shut up about it now before I say too much. (That way if I overextend myself and it crashes and burns, no one will ever have to know my failure. @[email protected])

Kríe Captivity

Enslaved on an alien planet Nira. Astrum Industries’ newest charted planet. Freshly discovered. Wholly unexplored. But that won’t be the case for long. Led by Captain Alec Hamlin, a team of explorers make an emergency landing and are soon confronted by their first Niran native. A huge male Kríe packed with muscle and bearing small, black horns and fangs. Fortunately, he’s friendly. Or so he lets them believe. With the help of his pack, the Kríe takes Alec’s team captive, intending to sell them for profit. But these Nirans aren’t just shrewd, they’re arrogant and domineering. And most of all, extremely sexual. Which explains why, on their journey to peddle their new wares, they feed Alec’s team a powerful aphrodisiac. Nothing like some decadent entertainment on the side. Soon the team finds themselves feverishly trying to resist the growing urge to get physical with their captors. But as passion prevails and unexpected bonds form, so much more is suddenly at stake. With no time left, will a shift in Kríe perspective be enough to change the fate of Alec’s team?

Wild Night - $0.99

What Happens When You Fall For Your Best Friend? Derren and Manny are an unlikely couple. Derren is the star of the Blues Hockey team and Manny, a bookish accountant. Oh, and only Derren is actually gay. But he doesn’t act it - using womanizing and partying to hide his true feelings. He has been doing this for so long; he has forgotten what it feels like to fall for someone. And then he does, and he falls hard because Derren develops feelings for best friend Manny.But are they reciprocated? Despite their growing relationship, Derren is unsure. One thing and another means the duo end up living together and it is increasingly not just as friends. On top of this, someone is causing trouble for the pair, threatening to expose their relationship for what it is and putting Derren’s career at risk.Will they be forced to come clean or will Manny finally confront his true feelings for Derren?

Self Possessed: a supernatural thriller - $0.99

As Nate sleeps, someone else wears his skin. Nate Bloom only lives half a life. Once he was an addict - but now he's clean, and has been for years. Until he lost his husband and child... And now when night falls, another takes the wheel... The other guy craves alcohol, drugs, sex and violence - which inevitably leads to a murder, one with Nate's DNA left at the scene. But Nate is no ordinary addict falling hard off the wagon - and he'll have to learn to bring some kind of balance between the two sides of himself, if he's going to get revenge for those he lost... SELF POSSESSED is a sprawling supernatural thriller that harks to Stephen King by way of Iain Banks, and will leave you breathless until the very end.

Omega Shadow

One is accused. One is betrayed. One is a killer. Midwife-apprentice, Kyle’s sheltered world is shattered when a patient’s mate flies into a murderous rage and attacks him. Kyle is rescued by a handsome alpha visitor, but as attraction blazes between the two men, and they fall into each other’s dreams, what starts as lust becomes something impossible. Kyle is a beta. He can’t be an alpha’s true mate. And yet, what else explains their connection? Pine Creek Lake alpha, Shadow isn’t looking for his true mate when he stumbles across a beta being attacked in the middle of the night. But when a simple rescue reveals a chain of possible murders, Shadow must learn the truth about the man in his dreams before it’s too late. Something is driving alphas in the Blackcreek pack to rage and die young. Is Kyle as ignorant as he pretends, or is he hiding a dangerous secret? As Kyle and Shadow work together to discover the truth, both men are forced to question their deepest assumptions about themselves and each other. Are they fated mates? Is Kyle living a lie? And when the truth is revealed, will Kyle have the courage to face it before Shadow suffers the same death as the others?

FUNDED BY PATREON

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PARANORMAL AND CONTEMPORARY MM EROTIC ROMANCES BY BESTSELLING AUTHOR SADIE SINS

Okay, so a little background. My goal is to find a way to support myself as a writer without needing to play the Amazon publishing game. It is extremely competitive and time consuming to claw to the top on Amazon, promoting and writing for market, and getting a zillion books out half-assed just to get bills paid. For adult, erotic authors like myself who write topics which can get books banned in a flash, all the time put into writing can be lost in a moment depending on whatever whim Amazon has for 'acceptable' fiction on their site at the time. I want to find a way around this discriminatory system, and I believe Patreon is that way.

I'm offering up an ongoing free series, Demon Bonded, with the intention of rewarding patrons who support me for as little as $1 a month. I understand money isn't always there when we want it (oh, I understand XD) so I want to find a way to not only be paid for my writing, but to also allow my writing to reach individuals who can't necessarily shell out cash for an escape into sexy, fun fantasy. The more established financially I become, the more I can offer my published books for less. This particular series, Demon Bonded, is the first experiment where each episode is only $0.99.

I understand this process isn't going to happen overnight, and no matter what I get for donations, Demon Bonded will continue to be written and now free on this site. This serial is not being held hostage, but instead offered as a thank you, and as a hope writers everywhere can find a way to be allowed to create and profit doing what they love. If you haven't yet, please support me on Patreon!

Thank you for your support—be it moral and/or financial—and happy reading. <3

~Sadie Sins

DEMON BONDED SERIAL

EPISODES IN PROGRESS
COMPLETED EPISODES AND AUDIOBOOKS

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Morning, peeps!

Quickie newsletter this week, pretty sure. XD I might actually be early too. I’ve been waking up at 1am the last week and I’m enjoying all the quiet time when the house is asleep. I think the fever actually helped me, weird as that may sound. I feel so chill. My thoughts are calm, I’m editing super fast, life feels good. Maybe my immune system needed a flu to fight to remind the body, ‘hey, this is what things feel like when we’re actually battling something dangerous. Chill already over the allergies.’ Lol, or maybe not. But I’m feeling fine, stable (fingers crossed) and I’m getting shit done, so I have no complaints! Whoo, the final draft/edit of Hellcat is flying. Gail is being an amazing help (thank you, Gail!) and I suspect this book is going to be officially done by next week. I need to get the cover adjusted slightly, seeing as the name has changed. Hellcat will eventually have a sequel, so the name Hellcat is now the series title instead of the new title, which is ‘Mated To The Demon Prince.’ Just in case you were wondering what Hellcat is about, mating and demon princes are a part of it. *wink* My first XXX novel and it’ll just squeeze in at 100,000 words. I’m super excited. I didn’t think I’d be able to balance so much heat with plot, but I found a way. I have a feeling the sequel may end up being even naughtier, seeing as it’s all about kidnapping and ruining a certain secondary character in the first book. *eyebrow waggle* But one thing at a time.

That Free Month Thing Was Apparently A Fail

Apologies are in order. So I thought by adding a month to everyone’s subscription would, you know, give everyone a free month. Simple. Apparently not. :/ You need to cancel your paypal payment to actually see the free month. What happens is you cancel payment and you’ll still be a member until the end of the added month. Ideally, that will be when Paypal prompts you again. (Ideally. Not holding my breath.) Seriously sorry this damn thing has been so buggy. I’ve been handing out refunds for those who I notice are having a problem, but I’m not usually looking at that side of the website. I just assume it ‘works’ you know? Silly me. This is for long term members too, btw. If you did a yearly subscription and cancel payment at the end, you’ll have a free month to read then. Once Hellcat is completed, I’m going to be looking at my subscription membership software. Very likely I’ll be updating it—possibly scrapping it for a new system all together. Whatever that choice will be, it won’t actually be happening until I finish writing Sorcerer Slayer. I want to get that gorgeous beast done (160,000 words already written, whoot!) and I want it to be now, not later. I have gone into neurotic fits every time I go to fix the website, and I just don’t want to be that crazy person right now. One day, I’ll be able to afford to hire someone for this shit. @[email protected] I absolutely understand why people want money, so they don’t have to deal with annoying shit. Anyways, the website bullshit can wait a month or so; Sorcerer Slayer is fucking happening! And Demon Bonded. The next episode is all drafted out, I just gotta give it my attention.

Oliris is born!

Okay, so I stumbled across a book I’ve been waiting for. Apparently it’s out!!! Lol. So, a year ago… wait, 2 years ago? Has it been two? (Sorry, I can’t remember time when it comes to what I’m now dubbing ‘the mold years.’ I remember things happened, not so much when.) Anywho, S. Neff had invited me to have a sneak peek of her book while she was writing. It was fabulous—I rarely read fantasy anymore but she brought the concrete into it and made it feel real—and I’ve been waiting ever since, and I suddenly stumbled across it yesterday. She’s an amazing artist, just saying, and I totally remembered the cover. Anyways, I’m just so glad all her hard work paid off, and her book is finally out! An author’s first book can be super intimidating (as can all the ones that follow. @[email protected] *cough* I mean, it totally gets easier. >_> ) Sometimes it can feel like the world is against you; time, money, even family and friends are suddenly battling for your ability to just get some words down. I’m always so happy to see someone get to the finish line. Congrats!

Bunny Love

For those who missed last week’s Last Week Tonight with John Oliver, they wrote a LGBTQ positive bunny book for kids! It’s all about bunny love and marriage equality—which, eh, I think marriage is archaic and overrated, but yay to those who enjoy the tax status. All proceeds go to the Trevor Project and Aids United. I wanted to point out this one star comment… Whoa. Okay, so there were only 400 or so comments a week ago. Holy fuck. And look at those resellers jacking the price up, the shameless opportunists. XD Anyways, someone wrote something along the lines of ‘…this book is a shallow misrepresentation of very sensitive issues, should not be read to children…” And I had to ask myself, why is sexuality in any form a sensitive issue? Why is gay marriage sensitive for anyone—except perhaps the people who aren’t allowed to marry because of something as trivial as gender? Why do some people want the range of human sexuality to just disappear, and why do they want the people who ask to be treated equally to be quiet because it’s ‘sensitive?’ I feel like people who want ‘sensitive’ things to disappear are really people who are uncomfortable with the world as it is. They hope as long as they don’t see it and think about it, they’re safe. ‘Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell’ was a fine example of sensitive human beings freaking the fuck out that gay people existed, but they were also trying to compromise by saying ‘just as long as we don’t know, you’re allowed to be gay and around us. But once we do know, you need to disappear cuz gay people can’t exist. Get out of my bubble.’ It’s pretty intense. It’s a whole lot of that perspective thing I was talking about last week. Blaming other people for your own discomfort and emotions—blaming a book for existing. (Oh, and yeah, I totally troll negative reviews on shit because I want to understand how and why people react. It’s great for writing realistic dialog, and great for understanding life in general. I study this stuff. XD) The world shouldn’t have to disappear for some people to feel comfortable. Not accepting a blue sky doesn’t turn it red, and not accepting the vast range of sexuality doesn’t make it go away. Why should anyone ever have to feel shame or go away just because some people can’t handle the reality around them? It’s not the world’s fault some people are sensitive; it’s theirs. Exposure therapy for the uncomfortable is a beautiful thing. Not only do they get to have a revelation every time they find their boundaries and push past, but there are so many people waiting to embrace them once they get past their shit and see how varied and beautiful the world is. Come on over and bring the hugs already. <3

Sexy Yaoi Game!

Oh, before I forget—I know, I’m all over the place this week. XD It looks like To Trust an Incubus Bara Yaoi BL Gay Dating Sim Visual Novel is going to happen! I’ve been watching this project closely, partly because I’m interested in one day making a yaoi Demon Bonded game. I can’t wait to see what Yamilia does to make this beauty come to life.

And Then The Devil Cried - $0.99

Adam Delaney was saved by a man with a criminal past. A man whose reality is different to most other people in this world, but for Adam, Rho Bennet is a savior. Marcus Troy is the man everyone fears. Rho Bennett considers himself the drug kingpin’s right hand, but things change when Rho brings home Adam, an orphan boy who never had a real family and who is having a rough time finding his place in the world. Rho’s instinct is to protect the boy but when Marcus sets his sights for Adam, everything changes. Marcus wants Adam at any cost. He will do anything in his power to get him. The Devil doesn't always laugh. Sometimes, he weeps with you. — So if you guys ever want to stalk me, here are some links (I don't mind if you are in it for the penis jokes) https://m.facebook.com/elliefoxfiction/ https://www.facebook.com/groups/elliesfoxes/

Atomic Banana: Forbidden Love MM Romance

Is it wrong of me to be falling for the Man of the House? I was only gone for two months, and I'm sure he wasn't this irresistible before I left. But there's no way that either he or I can act on these feelings that we're developing for each other... is there? When love is this strong, surely there is nothing that can stand in its way. No judgements, no taboos, no relationships... This is a dark, steamy taboo romance story that contains cheating and some moderate psychological terror.

Omega Sanctuary

I fell in love with the enemy. He was unpredictable. Hardened. Dangerous. He was my omega. Carter Thompson is an alpha wolf shifter, an outcast in a world full of betas. Sanctuary city is the last hope for his people. He just has to find it. However, his plans are turned upside down when he’s caught in the rifle sight of a handsome soldier with a huge secret. As a soldier for the beta army, twenty-eight-year-old omega Liam is granted a life of minuscule privileges, until a surprise pregnancy puts his fragile safety in mortal danger. Now Sanctuary City is Liam and his baby’s last chance. But an irresistible attraction to a rebel alpha soldier may be his downfall. Escaping with Carter Thompson is a desperate roll of the dice. Falling in love should not be in the cards. They are opposites. They should never have fallen in love, but they both understand loss and want a better future. Will that be enough to keep them together as Liam’s former comrades in arms close in?

Oliris

Senana Saz Rays has been sentenced to four years of slave labor on prison planet Indiku after assaulting his state appointed psychiatrist. Leaving his lover Rhyan behind on earth, Sena spends his time on the planet Indiku working with the coveted medicinal leeri flowers. Although a slave, he can’t help but find peace in the mundane life he’s lived on the alien planet and the wondrous sightings of the indigenous Zanzi that look so much like mythical earth dragons. Senana is just one year shy of going home and being with Rhyan again when all thoughts of freedom are swiped away as a massive Zanzi takes him from the leeri fields and back to the mountains it calls home. La’el is a proud Zanzi. His only wish was to find a life mate and experience the bond his parents share. When he finally finds him in the leeri fields he doesn’t hesitate to take Sena— even their vast physical differences won’t dissuade the young Zanzi. La’el will do anything to prove to Sena that they are meant to be together, even if he’s unsure how to convince his human mate. Both La’el and Sena are about to find out that there is more between them than either of them could ever imagine. Their bond affects more than just their fate, but also reveals a true evil buried in the heart of Indiku, and all the way back to Earth.

Last Week To Read Heat Free!

If having to go through his first heat wasn't bad enough for werewolf Ryan Moss, kidnapping and tying up his rival of forever, Shane Cooper, guarantees to make it eventful. Too bad Ryan's wolf thinks the boy is perfect for mating no matter how straight Shane says he is. XXX 23,000+ wrds, paranormal, werewolf, straight to gay, noncon, bdsm. Published: June 3, 2016  

Hey, peeps!

Audiobooks

Okay, you know how I keep saying sometimes you need to trick your brain into doing something? Well, I think I found a way to trick my brain into having fun instead of slamming it repeatedly on the desk in absolute boredom when it comes to editing the old books. How? Audiobooks. I’ve been playing around with the video software I got to record and edit the speed paint thingies, and I realized it had an audio function, and me no audio. Now, I’ve avoided the whole audiobook thing. It’s a shit ton of money to start off in a lot of cases. I’m talking like 1/2 a grand to a thousand dollars to hire a narrator and a studio to get a book recorded. It’s also time consuming, and usually someone else is involved. Someone to sign a contract with because they’re fronting some of the costs to get this audiobook made. The whole thing turned me off because I like simple, easy, no strings. That’s why I liked self publishing. That’s why I get so affronted with censorship bs—I don’t like being held back from doing the things I want to do, when I want to do them. Freedom at the cost of being an outsider, usually. Anywho, I found myself asking, ‘Just how fucking hard is it to make an audiobook, really?’ I have the content (the text), I have a recorder, and a way to edit audio. All I need is a voice. So I did some research to find the least annoying synthetic voice out there and gave it a shot. And in about 4 hours, I had made this. https://soundcloud.com/user-618890418/demon-bonded-episode-1 It was fun. Lol, it’s still fun, the process is becoming faster as I figure it all out, because I just finished up recording the rest of the Demon Bonded Episodes so far. And I’m all, OMG, I want this for all my books! But all my books aren’t so well edited, and have some annoying writing patterns I don’t use anymore. So there, that’s my motivation. A mix of neurotic completionism of making audiobooks for all the books, and fun with playing with tech. Yay! I plan to have all my books made into audiobooks in a way where I can sell them for the same price as an ebook. Audiobooks usually cost more, mostly because of all the other people involved, plus the cost of cloud storage—audio files can get freaking huge. Once I get all the components together on the selling front, you should be able to pick up the Demon Bonded episodes for $0.99 each, or audio bundles for $2.99 (same price as the Demon Bonded Collection books.) Plus the freebies will be free on the website. This is the kind of shit I love. It’s good enough. XD And yeah, that might sound sloppy, or half-assed, or what have you, but I’m sick of watching people break their backs (myself included) reaching for perfection instead of being happy with what’s in front of them. No, the synthetic voice doesn’t read perfectly. But it’s good enough, it’s a fast process, and it’s inexpensive, meaning the end result can also be inexpensive for listeners. If I started self publishing by hiring a cover artists and editor and what have you, would I have ever had gotten anywhere? I’d have been broke—fuck, I was already broke. XD Lol. I’m a total do-it-yourselfer and I love it. It’s fun and there are so many resources these days to get professional results without the price.

Interactive Novel

Speaking of fun and tech, btw… So, you know that interactive novel I want to make? The Demon Virus Sequel? The one I was talking about a few weeks ago where it’s like a choose your own, but instead of hitting dead ends, you discover secret, sexy story paths and scenes? Okay, so my brain is on it again—also outlined more Sorcerer Slayer and the next Demon Bonded—oh, and Hellcat has 2 scenes left. Pretty sure they’ll be done this weekend if I don’t go crazy with the audiobooks. Anyways, interactive novel. I was thinking how to plot it. I have these scenes but I want a visual, I want a way for people to simply select and move forward in the story and not get confused when they want to go back for a different branch. Then I was thinking of old school Mario Brothers. You know when you’d complete a level and they’d shoot you to the map, and a new level would open up? That’s what I want to do, but for a story. Text and a Story Map. I’m envisioning something like chapters being levels, and in each chapter you have the ability to unlock certain scenes, or branches to the story. When you unlock something, it pops up on the story map that you can select and read. You would have to unlock a certain amount—the key plot conflict points—to progress to the next level, aka chapter. If you unlock all the special scenes and story branches, I want to make it so you can unlock a totally different story arc, maybe a new character and everything. XD I think it’ll be fun. And it won’t be like a video game where you’re doing repetitive tasks, it’s still just reading. How you unlock things would be by the choices you make in a story scene. You decide if the character goes into the scary dark room (where a sexy monster awaits) or goes back to the party—that sort of thing. <3 Or maybe you need to find a 'key' in the text, like clues, that can be used as passwords to unlock other doors! Oh, or I might have 'items' you get when you complete certain scenes that can be used to defeat the conflict in other scenes, where, if you didn't find that item, you wouldn't be able to beat the scene and unlock a new one. I have so many ideas. XD Puzzles and choices but nothing tedious and grinding--the only grinding should be between the characters. *wink* I’ll have to learn some basic game programming—but it feels really basic. Switches and branches, nothing complex at all. My biggest issue atm is just learning enough to figure out what software will give me what I want without extra shit I would just find confusing at this stage. I’m not sure if I want people to have to play the game through repeatedly—you know, once you pick a story path, you have to stick to it until you get to the very end, and only once you finish the book/game, will you be able to try a new story path. But have a way to save the data so they can see the choices they made and be able to unlock the other levels—until finally they unlock the bonus ending! Okay, I might be crazy excited about this idea. XD It’s just so fun. Lol, and this is what I need when writing—fun! I can’t do boring, repetitive shit anymore. I used to RPG, I used to read (all the time,) I used to dedicate hours to television distractions. My brain wants to DO things, make things, and this is the way it has fun. So as long as I can find the fun in it, I can keep creating and getting shit done. That’s another thing. I’m choosing fun. I’m choosing happy. When I find myself at a crossroads, that’s what I want. Fun and happy. Lol, and no, I don’t feel a single fucking bad thing about it. XD You ever find some people want to just drag you down, they want you to take shit so seriously and have decided life isn’t supposed to be happy? I'm good. Life is what you make of it and I’m choosing happy. Rose-colored glasses all the way. <3

Last Week Catchup

Oh, also, sorry I missed so many emails last week. I know, it’s becoming a ‘thing.’ @[email protected] I do read them all, and have grand expectations to answer—you gals and guys are fucking amazing with such varied lives, and I love hearing about them all—and then life happens and the moment passes as I’m caught up doing something else. Much love to the people who have had their lives torn apart because of careless doctors, and the wish to trust and have faith in an expert. We want answers that come easily, we want to know it’s all going to be alright, and sometimes it’s that blind hope that leads to more problems. My adoptive dad actually ended up without a working stomach for the rest of his life after a doctor made a really dumb mistake during surgery, and bile backed up and nearly killed him. They tied his esophagus to his intestines to save his life after the mistake, and it took him years to recover. And no, I don’t think it’s these individual doctors, that they’re there to hurt people. If anything, I think they’re working their asses off in a system so stressful, it’s hard to not sink beneath. 300-400 physicians kill themselves annually in the US. The current system of medicine isn’t just hurting patients but also the people in it. Also, as much as I love my brother, I have to face the fact that he was the idiot who didn’t stand up for himself. He’s an adult who is still refusing to question another adult when it comes to his own mental and emotional health. If he hadn’t asked me for a pill cutter, I never even would have known he was about to take a psych med after going in for a cold. And that is where I find my peace. It’s not my job to freak out for him. It’s not my job to hold his hand through life and make sure he doesn’t fuck up. I learned my lessons because I fucked up big time—repeatedly—and I’m not about to forget. Ever. XD If he wants to be so blithe, that’s his path. As long as he doesn’t go on a killing spree over the meds prescribed him, I really don’t need to freak out. I can calmly (one day, when I don’t get triggered @[email protected] ) still remind him he’s likely bipolar and should research any med he adds to his system. But it’s still his choice, still his life, and there is little more I can do without taking it over for him—I’ve got way too much shit I want to do to take on that fucking job, btw. Just sayin. I'm glad I was paying attention, but he should have been taking care of himself and thinking.

Freebie Of The Month

Okay, I’m going to fly. HEAT is free this month, and don't miss out on the audiobook--I think you can download it from soundcloud. Pretty sure I haven’t had Heat free in a while. I seriously need to make a schedule so I don’t keep forgetting… Ugh. I swear we created computers to have a brain outside our brain that could just hold onto all the shit we really don’t need to know until moments like these.

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