I’m crazy excited about this! I have last year’s Demon Bonded calendar staring me in the face right now from the wall, and all I can think is how awesome it is to have gotten this done in time, really able to make images for the calendar instead of just fiddling with old covers. This is a return to art after a really super long break, and it’s just awesome to have gotten here. <3

Check out the pretties! ♥ I did an Art Card option for those who wanted the art without having to have a million different calendars in their house. Oh, and first time using Gumroad–super happy with their layout. They made this really easy. (link if it doesn’t load…)

Arting

Just wanted to check in and remind people I’m alive. @[email protected] I’ve been making a calendar the last two weeks. 3 more images to do and the 2020 Paranormal Academy for Troubled Boys calendar will be done. ♥ Here’s a little sneak peek of Theo’s finished image in his glorious dragon scales (cropped.)

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Fiddling…

I felt that Wylie looked too old in the other version. That, and the colors were too bright, kinda cartoony. So… this exploded instead. XD Ah, fun.

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Dorian’s got a cover!

Self explanatory. I’m trying to break whatever this thing is and move forward, so I sat down and got the next episode cover done. This week I want to put the first episode actually on Amazon and publish it. Just gotta keep moving and not think much…

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Hey

Thought I’d check in. I’ve been quiet the last few days, unraveling the emotional wiring that has frozen me in parts of my life. Had a big breakthrough; I finally got around to tackling the moldy room. Spent 2 days cleaning it up. It was looking nice. Got the old bedroom set up as a living room, and the old living room set up as an office for me. Bought some nice curtains, had shit organized, had even set up my graphics computer in there. I was really excited about it all. Then I woke up with my eyes crusted shut and my body in so much pain it felt like my muscles were trying to pull me into a ball.

So, yeah, that’s a no go. Fuck.

I’m feeling pretty demoralized about it all. It’s hard to work without a space of my own. I’ve been working out on the porch, but it’s not protected against the elements and the cold has crept up. I just want a quiet space where the messes of everyone else doesn’t reach me, metaphorically and physically. And I just want a space for me, at this point. Where I can be myself without being observed, judged, required to socialize, or respond. I want to be surrounded by the things that inspire me, not the things that inspire others, always feeling like I’m pushed into a corner taking up space in a place that isn’t mine. I’m still paying for the place, but with my room covered in mold, none of it feels like it’s mine.

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Stuff

Okay, so I’m using a cache again in the hopes of speeding things up, but… well, I’m not 100% sure how it’s going. It seems to be okay, but the subscription software and cache do not mix, so I’m always wary about this shit. Hit me up in the comments if you stumble on anything buggy.

I found myself skimming through Taken By Beasts, thinking, damn, I want to make another one of these! But that’s what Hellcat was supposed to be, just a short fic, and that ended up being 6 months and a novel looking for a sequel *sigh* I’m not sure if my weird writer’s block of late will let me just wip out a short fic. This inability to give in to impulse has been such shit. I’m working on it.

I’m thinking of just doing a section of outline/drafts of stories that I’ve been kicking around. Like a pre wip section… I dunno. I have a fair amount of short stories I wanted to poke at. So many ideas that have just been waiting, filling me with guilt because I’ve been feeling so slow on the writing front. I think just getting back into a creative spirit, looking at the old stuff and reminding myself that things don’t have to be perfect has been helping. I’m hoping one day it’s just going to clear, you know? That I’ll unstuck and it’ll just be in the past.

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Feeling more myself

What religion has done to our ideas of pleasure and quality of life should be a crime. It’s all a sin. They have made enjoyment a sin and then normalized it in our society. Our disgust for everyday people has roots here, tearing us apart until we can’t even see the beauty of each of us but instead their hateful, repressive messaging.

Just look at the seven deadly sins:

1. Confidence held by the lowly is pride, and how dare we ever lift our heads and feel good about ourselves. They will come to crush us when we do.
2. Desiring wealth–you know, that thing we all need to survive–is greed because we want what they say isn’t ours to have.
3. The whore for lust, objectified and shamed as if we all don’t have bodies that seek to feel good, to connect to others. Criminalizing our need to love and be social. Censored to be ‘appropriate’ until we must conform to their dress-codes of shame and their sexual codes of who can love who.
4. The desire for better–to be raised above a station of shit and have control–is envy, because again, we’re not allowed to want what we did not inherit. Wealth belongs to the wealthy.
5. To be fat is to be a glutton, and how we starve ourselves of nutrition, joy, simple pleasures and love as a result, keeping us week physically and spiritually.
6. Anger–that perfectly rational, powerful strength each and every one of us has to utilize so we can say enough is ENOUGH–is the sin of wrath because they want us meek, cowed, obedient. Customer service instead of a revolution.
7. To be relaxed, to sink into life and enjoy our time–our only time on this planet, and it is 100% ours to own–is to be sloth, lazy, unworthy of basic respect and dignity because they want us to die in the streets if we won’t lift a finger to work their factories. To trap us in a system that forces us from the day we are born to pay for our ability to live in a shelter, on a piece of land we will never own but always pay for, where we can grow food to live in the soil they polluted while they sell us cardboard and sand to starve on. Where they tell us that our endeavors are only valuable if it makes money, when it is in the creativity of art and play that we are finally free.

They take the human animal and strip us of the very tools we have to feel, to live, to love, to enjoy life, and to fight back, and they call them ‘sins.’ And this, my dears, is why Sadie Sins. Because fuck that repressive, heartless, hateful shit.

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Hey babes,

*flail* @[email protected] Damn, this was a tough week. I’m talking funerals, run ins with the cops over mistaken identity, insomnia and PTSD triggering– but none of that matters, cuz I finished the calendar!!! <3 Gah, it’s so pretty!

Most of the Academy guys are representing. Listing off Wylie, Dorian, Fox, Forest, Leo, Justin, Vincent, Christopher, Antonio, Jake, Theodore and Michael. I even did one with the three baddies I added into the serial, skinner siblings who tangle with Theodore when Wylie is in holding.

You can snag it here on gumroad. I made some printed art cards of the same images, so for the peeps who don’t want to have a dozen different calendars hanging up, there’s an option.

I had to limit it to the US for shipping purposes. If you’re out of country and super interested in getting a calendar/art cards, email me and I can find out pricing.

This was a process… >_>

I really didn’t know if this calendar was going to happen. My recovery from the mold/Parkinson’s had left me in this really weird, unmotivated place. I felt like I was failing at everything, unable to focus or find a reason to really *do* now that I wasn’t in a constant state of distress. Part of this was definitely chemical as my brain changed, while I think another part was deep in my psyche. This calendar became the experiment to see if I could regain my former self and drive to complete work like I used to.

I gave myself a sharp deadline of the 1st of Dec, the first two weeks spent cleaning up the stock photos and finding my focus, the second two weeks making 12 images. As you can see, I did not make the deadline, but that was only because of those unpredictable life things that started right after Thanksgiving, from a loved one at death’s door and then dying, to a weird series of events I can’t even begin to comprehend that revealed the giant, gaping flaws in the justice system. (Did you know that if you have the same name as a local criminal, you could instead be arrested? Our family just found out and have to pay all the lawyer fees to get this shit fixed.)

So yeah, many of these images were made in a day, when I normally like to give myself a week per digital painting. I learned a lot during this project, from a more efficient process, to little shortcuts my brain just couldn’t comprehend when I was ill, to letting go of needing to be perfect. Most importantly, I learned how to motivate myself again, and how to find ways around the overwhelm that keeps freezing me in place. My brain just stops now when there are too many options. It’s so weird–I feel like a completely different person, which I think is probably what brain damage does…

Anywho, now that this project is done, I’m looking forward to putting these new skills toward completing the final edit of the first 3 episodes of the PATB serial and getting them out into the world. Overwhelm has been a big issue with writing as of late, but I’m figuring things out, breaking scenes down with detailed outlines to help me focus on small segments to combat the issue.

MM Reads To Snag

There have seriously been some amazing new releases out there this month while I’ve had my head buried in arting. If you’ve missed them, go check them out now. They’re worth the read.

The Monster Bash game has come to a close

I wanted to thank everyone who participated. You can snag up your free participation gift here –> LINK

This was a bit of a wild ride. A story written in a matter of days, a game made all around the remnants of the ‘A Monster Bash’ short story from Taken By Beasts. Copies of Hellcat and a free week long pass to the website given out. I have totally lost track of time, life, responsibilities– and I don’t care! XD It was fun babes. I hope we get to do something like this again.

Until next newsletter 😉

An invitation to play with monsters…

You are cordially invited to a Monster Bash hosted by Sadie Sins as part of Nero Seal’s Cum Gobble with the Seals Thanksgiving Event. You can join in the festivities on November 12, 2019 at 2pm EST for an hour of games and fun by going to https://www.facebook.com/groups/neros.seals/

Featured will be a paranormal mad libs style game where participants get to live out a wild, sexy story at a Sadie Sins’ party full of monsters, sorcery, and competing lovers—err… but censored to conform with Facebook’s TOS. (sorry ._. ) There will be multiple opportunities to win a free copy of Hellcat: Mated to the Demon Prince by Sadie Sins, as well as one Grand Prize Winner gets a free week subscription at sadiesinsbooks.com, where you can read all the deliciously naughty MM stories you want for a week. All participants who complete the game to the end (and yes, you can play later if you can’t make the initial party time,) will receive a special gift just for participating.

There are events happening daily the next two months in Nero’s group, so don’t miss out. I look forward to seeing you all there on Tuesday the 12th at 2pm!

<3 Sadie Sins

Hey babes!

Okay, I’m kinda pulling this game out of my ass last second, but I think people will have fun. It’s a unique story where you get to fill in certain blanks, either with prerequisites (like the month you were born means you have to choose THIS,) or random fill ins where you can put whatever you want, be it silly or super cool (or both!) It allows you to decide what kind of monster your character is in love with, what kind of kink the story leans toward, what kind of familiar you get as a companion in this disturbing castle, etc.

I set it up in a way that you don’t have to be playing all at the same time to enjoy the experience, but where reading other people’s responses should be worth showing up to check out the comment section. I know you peeps are so freaking creative and funny. <3 And for people who do comment, showing they’re playing the game, they’ll be entered each time for a chance to win a free copy of Hellcat.

The grand prize winner drawing is only for those who make it to the very end of the game. The game itself shouldn’t be hard–it’s just fun, really–but there will be some little questions referring to your game answers to prove you played from beginning to end. I’ll give it a week’s time after the event before holding the prize drawings for any latecomers, and I’ll send out all the prizes at once, including the participation prizes at that time. Watch my Facebook page on Tuesday, Nov 19, for the winners announcement.

So yes, you get a full week to play, but it would be super cool if you showed up during the event itself so I can meet you all and chat about stuff. 😉

I’ve gotta rush off to make sure I get this game done in time. @[email protected] I can’t wait to see you all there!!! <3