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So What Goodies This Week? 🐝

Babes, what a week.

I could go over the crap happening in the world, how my chromebook charging port kicked it, stuff I failed to do, blah, blah, or I could tell you about L-Glutamine. This is my third day on the supplement—it’s a simple amino acid in powder form where I take a tsp in the morning and evening. I started it because I heard it did amazing things to heal leaky gut, and considering I have an autoimmune disorder and so many allergies and difficulty digesting or eating in general, it is very likely I have leaky gut. What I didn’t realize was what L-Glutamine does for the immune system and its responses.

Third day and I’m a different person. Yeah, that scares the fuck out of me after 4 years of yo-yoing of am I going to be okay or not. Because the second day, I woke up myself again after so fucking long. It was like waking up into my teenage to early 20 something body but without the mold poisoning I was experiencing during those years. My brain is back, body is back. There is this underlying feeling of stability and sturdiness I cannot even begin to describe but has flipped life upside down. I am calm, energetic, my body is moving again like it should, it’s holding moisture like it should—I’m no longer waking up with dry eyes, flaky skin and pruned fingers. I have picked up my cats repeatedly and not had allergic reactions of wheezing and dry eyes and exhaustion. I feel l so stable I don’t know when to take my adrenal meds.

I ate so much food yesterday! XD I’m also incredibly hungry at this moment. I have been struggling so long to be able to force food down the last 4 years and in a day, I have hunger and digestion again. Pain does not hurt me like the overreactions of before; it’s like my nerves are coated in something soft and protective. I feel warm when it’s cold out—suck it, hypothyroid. I actually sweated and I didn’t go, fuck, do I have a fever? There is something about this L-Glutamine where it not only effects metabolism, immune function, gut permeability, energy levels, brain cognition but also gives an overall feeling of well being and confidence, and I’m fucking loving it.

Example. I learned some shitty news about Barnes & Noble yesterday as they make a sweep to ban books in their erotica section containing taboo subjects; they were the last hold out for certain subjects to be allowed in the mainstream market. Dark erotica is being squeezed out and the policing of people’s fantasies normalized in the name of decency and family values while ignoring consumer demand–this is an anti business move being disguised as the opposite by businesses of books. Not just dark erotica, but gay erotica because these themes are most prevalently explored by the open minded LGBTQ community. This is literally a personal problem for me given what I enjoy writing, and my stance on anti censorship and the freedom of adults to be able to make adult decisions including what they want to read and make money off of writing.

That said, I’m not emotionally devastated; I’m not even taking it personally. Instead, I’ve been thinking a lot about how I need to publish fiction that fits into the norm so I can fund my ability to write the smutty, dirty erotica I love so much. I’m thinking of writing a FMM paranormal trilogy—outlined this gorgeous beast a year ago and maybe now is the time to get it fleshed into creation—so I can ‘legitimize’ myself among the mass market to prove writing sex isn’t a crime and the authors who do it shouldn’t be treated like degenerates with their books banned and profits prevented. I actually had a very wicked thought I doubt I’ll follow through with where I could write a ‘clean’ fiction trilogy metaphoring (oh yeah, I just verbed that) strong Christian values while urging said readers to my very naughty website where we embrace the value of not being repressed as fuck as a culture. I have better things to do, but the irony would be delicious.

Anywho, new Sorcerer Slayer and Shifter Safe Haven in the Library, and new Intangible under Free. I decided on HellCat for my annual Halloween fic this year cuz it’s super fun, a bit easier with it being all plotted out, and I have so much stuff I want to do while I’m feeling well. On Smashwords you can now get Demon Bonded episodes #1-6 republished with new, shiny covers and extra editing. Hoping to get the next three up this week. I was slowed down with allergies last week but hey, this L-Glutamine is making shit happen super fast now. I feel strong and whip sharp mentally. Expect episode #10 of Demon Bonded to be published some time next week as long as my health holds. So excited—so many secrets to share in the series. XD

Oh, and a shout out to the kind souls who took the time to review Demon Bonded! I seriously appreciate it. Every review helps me look like a real author. <3

I know I bitch about my health a lot. There has been so much resistance in my life to where I am. But now I feel like myself *fingers crossed* I really see why I’ve been struggling. I want to get all these stories out of my head and shared with the world. There are these beautiful characters just waiting to be found, understood, and connected with. I think it’s the human condition in so many ways. We are trapped in these bodies, unique and similar, and all we want is to find those who see us and can pull us from these feelings of loneliness and isolation. We are infinite beings living in a finite world made of matter, and every dream and thought we have is an entity we create and grow. How can we not suffer when we all manage to keep getting trapped in one world, one dark thought or restrictive lifestyle? Stories allow us to see the range we have inside and hopefully lead us to stretch into a new life where we are less restricted, less caged in flesh and social norms. We need someone to tell us we’re going to be okay, because fuck, from the perspective of trapped humanity, it’s not even a possibility to see it as real.

My dears, it is going to be okay.

Demon Bonded

First book is Perma-Free. If you haven’t snagged it, don’t miss out. <3

 

 

 

 

 

 

Incubus Seduction — $0.99

Lust is life for an incubus

Judging by the desire radiating from the red-faced mortal in his sex shop, there was yet another fast, forgettable meal coming his way. When his intended snack turned him down, even after he’d massaged his prey’s inhibitions, the demon’s interest piqued.

No ordinary human could resist the lure of an incubus for long, and yet Finn was fighting as if his life depended on it. If what Ezra suspected was true, it did. Finn’s lust was not only life for the demon, it was a ticket to fame and fortune beyond his wildest dreams.

It was time to use his full demonic abilities to bring down his prey, to separate him from his mundane life and relationships, even if it was against supernatural law.

Being propositioned by a mouth-watering stranger was flattering, but a fling would ruin Finn’s carefully planned future. So why couldn’t Finn forget what those sinful, dark eyes promised?

A m/m paranormal novella told from the human’s POV. 1st part of the Incubus series. NOT a standalone.

The Second Quarterback — $0.99

They Like To Play The Field But That Might All Change When They Meet

Charity organizer Alex Foster doesn’t give second chances. What can love possibly have to offer that no-strings sex doesn’t cover with a hundred times less risk?

That might be bad luck for NFL star Garrett Argent. These days, he’s all out of second chances. He’s onto the third, the fourth and the fifth – and if he isn’t careful, even his incredible natural talent won’t keep him in professional football for much longer.

When Garrett approaches Alex’s charity to help organize a fundraising gala, sparks begin to fly.

Can Alex overcome his past traumas to let new experiences in? Can Garrett overcome his bad reputation without taking advantage of anybody’s good faith? Or will it be curtains for the second quarterback in Alex Foster’s life…?

Demon Bonded Is PermaFree! 🍧

Hey babes,

My first Perma-Free book is up!

I am officially ‘wide.’ Huzzah! I actually have the first four Demon Bonded episodes up in their new covers, actually. Five more to go, and then I’ll be publishing the brand new episode, #10. I have a favor to ask of you all. This is my first time going wide and I’m hoping to instill some confidence and familiarity to new readers. Would you mind downloading and reviewing Something Waiting In The Dark from any retailer who isn’t just Amazon? I’m basically going to have to learn the ins and outs of every new platform, but reviews are universally a customer’s goto to figure out if a new book is worth their time. I would greatly appreciate it (and hey, free book.) <3

Oh, two new freebies on the website and Intangible is up to #20

I’m reconsidering the KU thing, at least for serials. If I went with KU, I would be locking that new serial episode in for 3 months on Amazon while saying a big fuck you to any reader on any other platform. Of course, I don’t have any readers on any other platform just yet (except Smashwords; I will be uploading Demon Bonded there once I download the new template.) It does seem to defeat the purpose of going wide if I’m pandering to only one platform. I seriously need to start thinking differently about a lot of things now. Why punish every other potential reader out there just because Amazon is again unflexable? I might end up using KU for short story stand-alones and novels and keep the serial episodes wide to have a better pacing with releases. Or going wide might mark the death of KU for me. I don’t know yet. I know why I got the fuck out of KU and why I need to make any other situation work and I’m not about to forget that bullshit anytime soon. But at the end of the day, it’s still about the readers and making sure they’re happy.

So, I’m hesitant to tell you all about my week, mostly because it’s been a really difficult one and I don’t want to dwell too much. Hit with the allergies 3 times and each time resulted in the inability to move my arms, walk straight, or think properly for 8-12 hours on end. The first time was 2 hours after my allergy shot on Tuesday; fucking broke my heart and shattered my reality all in one go. I guess I should focus on the fact I still get to come back to me after it passes, even if I seem to have little control over when I lose myself. I don’t break (outside of my emotional freak outs of turning into a zombie XD,) I just lose my life for hours on end.

I’ve basically locked myself in my room today in the hopes of avoiding another attack. I have a feeling this is a seasonal thing now the leaves are piling up on the ground again and mold is my most severe trigger. I want to get the rest of Demon Bonded out and I want to get back to Sorcerer Slayer—I feel like I hit a lull in the conflict and I need to get the tension back. Oh, and I want to finish Shifter Safe Haven #4. I was poking at that yesterday when I collapsed. Seriously, fuck allergies. It doesn’t seem to matter how many allergy shots I get or how clean I eat or how fucking perfect I strive to be, control and safety is an illusion, one I’m never going to be able to embrace. So I say fuck it and write.

Found a quote from my old apartment I stuck back up on my wall; ‘Where you dwell in consciousness is where you truly dwell.’ At the end of the day, our reality is what we perceive it to be. In that perception can be an eternity of joy and happiness, or struggle and misery. I’m striving for joy.

Hope you all had a wonderful week, and if you didn’t, you can find a stunning silver lining to keep you smiling. <3

Something Waiting In the Dark – Free

Something hunts in the dark…

After his father is laid off, Ky Scion is forced to reside in his ancient family manor in the small town of Blackstone Falls. He’s an outcast to the local farmers, too Goth and too gay. Ky turns to repairing the huge house while pursuing an art degree. His parents are blind to the terrible secret he discovers among the bloodstained walls. Something lives in the dark, in the nooks and hideaways of the old house. Someone with hot breath and strong hands who wakes Ky up in the middle of the night.

In the dark hides the powerful Relics. Unique and beautiful, they’re exploited for their magic and fought after viciously. Relics aren’t items, they’re sentient beings, demonic men stolen from their world to be bonded into servitude to callous sorcerers.

Ky’s grandfather disappeared years ago, leaving his Relics to be killed off one by one. The monster who feeds on the Relics smells of rot and blood, and is soon to attack. Ky’s not a sorcerer, and has no way to defend himself from the murderous beast set on revenge.

Each episode in this sexy, suspenseful gay monster harem serial is over 10,000 words, and should be read in order to be enjoyed fully.

Scoundrel by Wendy Rathbone – $0.99

Antares is a willing sex slave, trained in the harems of Anada since the age of 18, and owned by a wealthy master who spoils his slaves. But all that changes when Empire soldiers invade Antares’ world and he is taken away from the only life he’s ever known.

In a colonized galaxy where starships are as common as houseflies, and a dark Empire seeks to control thousands of civilized worlds, there are those who fall through the cracks and refuse to be conquered, including the pirate, Slate, and his crew.

Out in the darkness of the unknown, among Empire soldiers and scoundrels, will bad fates befall Antares and his fellow captive companions?

Will Slate finally find the love he’s been looking for his whole life?

Can Slate and Antares ever see eye to eye?

A male/male romance to end all male/male romances!

Faunication: Kali’s Story – Free in KU

The gorgeous faun Kali became a famous actor with a traveling troupe in the human world and has written a memoir that holds nothing back, despite knowing it will offend the sensibilities of the chaste and literate nobility.

Kali has sex with men and women without preference. When he falls in love with the carnival master Richard he accepts it with his entire heart, but he soon finds out that humans aren’t as versatile as his kind. Richard denies feeling the erotic energy between them. Can Kali teach him the faun way of love?

The first half of this book is pure faunication and the second half is the love story between Kali and Richard. This is a complete ebook, not a series, with a guaranteed HEA. Written by the author of UnPrison.

Devil’s Kiss – Free in KU

He picked me up on a lonely road and made me his lover…

Adam is fresh out of high school and on the road trying to find himself and some independence. His mom might not ever forgive him for hitchhiking across the US alone, but at least his dad promised to keep the money flowing.

Things were fine until a crazy old lady left him stranded in the middle of the Arizona desert. No one will stop for him, and the unbearably hot day is quickly turning into a frigid night.

Out of the darkness, an unlikely savior arrives. Chuck’s not exactly the kind of person you expect to be riding a motorcycle through the desert, but he’s handsome and he’s kind enough to offer Adam a ride into Phoenix. He happily takes him up on the offer.

When a rival gang blows up Chuck’s bike while Adam and Chuck are both sleeping, though, a once innocent young man finds himself thrust into the dangerous world of motorcycle gangs, guns, and drugs. Will he survive long enough for his one night stand with Chuck to turn into something more?

New Monthly Freebie 🐳

Blah,

I definitely caught something… pretty sure. Bugger. Woke up with a fever I thought went away last night. Could be the autoimmune. I’m not actually sure my body knows how to have a cold and not attack the shit out of itself. Whatever. It’s giving me time to stare vacantly at my desktop and do the final edit of Demon Bonded. This includes having Word read it back to me so I can catch any wrong word replacements. Lol, it keeps pronouncing Ky, K Y like KY Jelly. XD It’s been a day. Oh, maybe I’ll answer some fucking emails finally, huh? Sorry, guys. It’s been hectic.

Hey, I finished Episode 10 of Demon Bonded. Expect it out this month. I’m usually faster but I want to get 1-9 all pretty and polished before I put 10 up. And I apparently lost/threw out my Wacom pen so I have to wait for a replacement before I can make the cover. Okay, it’s been a week, I guess. >_> If you’re a subscriber, you can read episode #10 now on the website, along with the newest chapters of Intangible which are in the Free section.

I think I’m going to be focusing on Intangible as I see this fever through, although I’m outlining the next City Howls episode and I’m looking at Awakening again. I had a very rough outline I’m starting to flesh out to finish up the first part of Awakening. It looks like Part 1 is going to be around 100,000—150,000 words by the time we get to the bloodbath of the first book’s ending. <3 I swear I sometimes only write these long, complicated stories to get to those crazy ass climaxes of doom. It spurs me on.

Watermelon! I woke up and before my fever sprang back to life I had some amazing watermelon. The real stuff with seeds in it that actually taste like food, aka sugar. It was divine, and so difficult to find now. I think I’m going to be sustaining on it for the next day cus anything else just seems like a bad idea on digestion while sick.

I have a feeling if I keep talking, I’m just going to be rambling like a mofo. Goodies below. Crap, and I need to switch out the monthly free book on the website… Hold on. Damn, I seriously need to make a spreadsheet so I remember which ones I had up here before…

Oh. Hello.

^___^ Babes, how many of you haven’t read Obsession: Home Invasion yet?

Forced to fuck father son incest. I think it’s about time, huh? For September only, you can read Obsession for free on the website. (You just have to join the free member section if you haven’t yet.) Enjoy <3

Faunication: Kali’s Story — Free in KU

The gorgeous faun Kali became a famous actor with a traveling troupe in the human world and has written a memoir that holds nothing back, despite knowing it will offend the sensibilities of the chaste and literate nobility.

Kali has sex with men and women without preference. When he falls in love with the carnival master Richard he accepts it with his entire heart, but he soon finds out that humans aren’t as versatile as his kind. Richard denies feeling the erotic energy between them. Can Kali teach him the faun way of love?

The first half of this book is pure faunication and the second half is the love story between Kali and Richard. This is a complete ebook, not a series, with a guaranteed HEA. Written by the author of UnPrison.

One More Man — $0.99

Get this book collection of hot Gay MMM Romance adventures in this exciting new collection

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Fighting For Love: Gay Paranormal Menage Romance
Riding The Bikers: Gay Paranormal Menage Romance
Stuck In The Middle: Gay MMM Suspense Romance

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New Giveaway! 🍄

Posters are mailed out! Congrats to the winners!

Hey, peeps. Let’s start with awesomeness. <3

13 Enthralling Gay Space Operas to Explore the Future

Eyes on Books is back with a new giveaway and this time you have 30 hours to enter (from the time I email this out.) Less of a mad rush, eh? Huzzah. I seriously used to only read sci-fi as a kid. This was way before I even knew mm existed. To have the two combined seems pretty damn badass and I might have to check some of these books out when I get some free time.

 

It’s been a tiring week.

I don’t even know where the fuck it went. The website is updated with a new style and a functioning menu (finally.) I know I kind of threw things together the first time around cuz of the KU mess. I gave it the attention it needed and eventually all the graphics will be updated as I get the old covers remade.

Let’s see, Demon Bonded 10 has two more scenes up and two more to go before it’s done… maybe. It’s already over word count. I might have to cut a scene in half to get the next book going, but I have a feeling this episode is just going to be a little long.

I seriously don’t know where the hell the week went. I feel like I had a mini mental breakdown and didn’t realize it. There’s this marked difference of unconscious living and conscious living where you’re just reacting to things. Panic seems to sink in so easily. My PTSD was all over the place. Trump + North Korea = me going fucking crazy. I’m sick of it. I’m sick of having to react to his fuck ups while he doesn’t feel a thing. I have never been more afraid for my life on a daily basis and I’ve lived in two abusive households. Trump is the ultimate abuser on this entire country and I seriously need to disengage from his bullshit.

Anyways, I’m back, conscious, writing and finishing up book covers. Only about a dozen left to go, then the editing of doom. I think I once estimated I had over 300,000 words of writing done some months back. (Why? Because I’m neurotic and count shit. XD) Some books are fine; I wrote them when my brain wasn’t overrun with mold/inflammation. Others need attention.

I was thinking lately how everything I’ve learned and experienced has gotten me to this place. There are people in my life (myself included) who have experienced so many false starts. They want something more than what they’re doing and they reach for it. For whatever reason, they fail and they give up. The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again expecting a different result. Let me just say, I’m glad I’m insane. XD

If I wasn’t, I might have given up too. I might have decided because it was hard and didn’t work out the first time, or worked to my expectations it wasn’t meant to be, or I wasn’t allowed to have my dreams, or I just wasn’t good enough. Trying repeatedly is not insane, it’s required. It’s a constant, not a once in a while thing.

People grow. They learn skills and they get better at things. Those false starts were also steps, important ones where things were learned, pain endured, skin toughened and hopefully determination found. You have to give yourself a chance to learn and adapt even if you want to be there Right Now! You need to allow yourself to redefine the world and yourself every time you look at it, otherwise you can get stuck in an idea of reality that doesn’t let you live the way you want. The same way we can build up a project or a creative endeavor until it’s complete and amazing, we build ourselves. It’s pretty damn beautiful.

So, yes, that’s where I am in my head as I leave you on this gorgeous Saturday evening with some goodies and a freebie below. I feel like I went through a week from hell just to wake up in a beautiful world again. If it allows me to appreciate the things I have, I really can’t complain.

 

Eligible Receiver

Carter Williamson can’t stand sports. Ultra-dedicated to his future in political science, he’s got no time for obnoxious fans, bimbo groupies or egomaniacal players.

But opinions can change, and after being dragged to an NFL game by his Physical Therapist brother, Carter can’t help but admit that there’s something special about star player Isaiah Mitchell—namely that his pants feel a lot tighter whenever he gets within ten feet of Isaiah’s tall, well-muscled body.

The attraction seems mutual, but how can the pair get a fair play with Isaiah being the poster-boy within a notoriously homophobic sport? Carter isn’t willing to live life in secret forever, but can Isaiah risk his entire future on a hot college kid he’s only just met?

 

The Wild Side

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Fighting For Love: Gay Paranormal Menage Romance
Billionaire Games: Gay Suspense Billionaire Romance
Redemption: Gay Vampire Werewolf Romance
Billionaire To The Rescue: Gay Paranormal Menage Romance
He’s A Catch: Gay Sports Bad Boy Romance
Saving The Bad Boy: Gay Crime Mystery Romance

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The Billionaire’s Estate

The Billionaire’s Estate: A Steamy Gay Billionaire Menage Romance + Two Bonus Books

Edgar Fallow is a callboy with a dark past, and what looks to be an even more dismal future. When he’s offered an escape to a billionaire’s estate, he accepts immediately. He’ll do anything to avoid the man after his head. However, he finds himself in a stranger predicament than he could have ever anticipated, at the hands of not one John, but two! With a year’s contract, he’ll have enough time and sufficient funds to plan an escape from the city. Will love get in the way?

CONTENT NOTE: This is a short story that may be read in under 2 hours. This book also includes an extra 5+ hours of bonus stories for your enjoyment.

AUTHOR’S NOTE: This is a stand-alone story with an HEA, so no cliff-hangers! This story contains explicit love scenes and is intended for 18+ readers only.

Contest Winners (and is the world burning?)

Stephen Bannon is out of the White House! Fuck Yeah!!! <3

Hey. XD It’s been a fucking crazy week. I’m so glad I sent out last week newsletter before looking at the news because I just don’t think I would have had anything focused. I’m putting all the political stuff at the bottom so those happy to hide from it can. But it’s there and it’s going to remain there until this shit is dead and buried. This isn’t a battle we’re allowed to lose.

Poster Giveaway Winners!

I’ve messaged/emailed both contest winners. One was from the Facebook enrollment, the other from the pool of all my website subscribers. So if you’re a subscriber and you never check your email… Whoops.

Lol, sorry I didn’t warn anyone. I never contact people unless they contact me first so this probably will seem random. But I had a lot of fun with this contest/giveaway, and I want to do more in the future. Like crazy fun shit once life settles down a bit. Did you know you can get really cool messenger bags with whatever you want printed on them? <3 Yeah, that kind of crazy fun shit.

Also, are people interested in posters in general? I was thinking maybe offering them on the website for fans to purchase. It’s just a whole new set up of coding… I dread just thinking of it. =_= But it might be fun and for those who didn’t win, you could get your fav. We’ll see if I can convince someone else in my house to learn how to build some webpages for a change. >_>

Writing Stuff

The writing has suffered this week, to put it bluntly. I rail against reality, demand I not be effected by the world and carry on instead like an unfeeling machine. Ultimately, I fail. If I’m honest, I shouldn’t win in something like this. Sometimes what’s happening in the world is bigger than my own shit and my goals have to wait. It sucks.

That said, Fox Claims Vince is up and all done (hot little exclusive smut fic) and I figured out how to do comments for the embedded pdf reads. It’s going to take a little bit of time to update all the stories with the new format, but for those waiting for comment responses on Fox Claims Vince, they’ve been moved to the new page with the link that says ‘comment section.’

I’m a little sappy (really fucking sappy) and I treasure every comment. I refuse to delete that shit. So I’m stoked to have found a way to keep the comments even as I switch to the secure format.

What else… Demon Bonded: Coven Saga S2 is up. I’m going to be cranking out 2-3 chapters of Intangible (freebie) this weekend. Oh, and I made 23 covers since last Wednesday. O_O

I love how Heat and Bite came out. <3 I will eventually update the covers onto the books—so much fucking work still to do. @[email protected] Worth it. It is. But what a pile of stuff to get through.

Rock Hard

All three of these men are hard and ready for you…
Hephaestus Motorcycle Club: Arizona’s never been so hot as in this steamy erotic romance.

Adam is fresh out of high school and on the road trying to find himself and some independence. His mom might not ever forgive him for hitchhiking across the US alone, but at least his dad promised to keep the money flowing.
Things were fine until a crazy old lady left him stranded in the middle of the Arizona desert. No one will stop for him, and the unbearably hot day is quickly turning into a frigid night.

Out of the darkness, an unlikely savior arrives. Chuck’s not exactly the kind of person you expect to be riding a motorcycle through the desert, but he’s handsome and he’s kind enough to offer Adam a ride into Phoenix. He happily takes him up on the offer.

When a rival gang blows up Chuck’s bike while Adam and Chuck are both sleeping, though, a once innocent young man finds himself thrust into the dangerous world of motorcycle gangs, guns, and drugs. Will he survive long enough for his one night stand with Chuck to turn into something more?

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The Face Of Hate

This week knocked me on my ass all because of the face of hate. It doesn’t look different. Those people could have been my neighbors, friends from school, colleges from work. There is no symbol or mark outside of the knowledge that these people would gladly kill someone who looked just like them that sets them apart. For real, some of them looked Jewish, looked Hispanic, looked Italian and Greek. They were Americans. Diverse, different, and for some reason there’s a broken message in their head telling them to hate the people around them.

It’s easy to pretend we’re better, more evolved, that nothing horrible can happen while we live in our cloudy bubble of civilization. Our brains are not more evolved; we still cling to superstitions, fears of the dark and death, and have our innate drives for survival and reproduction. Some have drives that are so self destructive, we murder our own. This week has been a battle with those very human demons and learning how to cope against a darkness that’s as ancient as our species.

What a fucking win to see modern tech fight xenophobia, racism and bigotry. DNS servers and web hosters both erasing these people from the Internet to steal their voices. People on social media passing images of the wannabe Nazis and getting them fired and ostracized. All it takes is ‘outing’ a white supremacist to cull them. I’ve heard so many who want to defend against it, to say freedom of speech protects those hateful messages. All I know is freedom only exists because it is given and protected. These hateful people would take freedom away from everyone but the white supremacists. If I held the tools of freedom I would not hand them to those who would steal it for themselves alone.

Why should society sit idly by? From birth, this is how we teach what is acceptable and what isn’t. If behavior is too detrimental to the tribe, you face exile. Maybe once these exiles stop blaming everyone else for their problems and face who they are and how they’re fucking up their lives, they might grow into full human beings. People don’t change in stagnant waters, so let them suffer into growth. Let them see why they need the society they aim to destroy.

As hateful as their rally was in Charlottesville; it’s poignant to count that was their army out of an entire country of people. You want to talk about an endangered species, meet the modern white supremacist. They know they’re endangered; that’s half their terror. They culturally appropriate symbols and rituals of hate from those who came before because even in their hatred, they’re blind to the fact they have no roots, no basis outside of their fear and inability to accept that every life on this planet is just as valid as their own. They live in the past, in a world that doesn’t exist. A world that will never exist as long as we continue to fight back.

I’m up near Boston (live in Massachusetts) and I’m proud of all the loud, brave, fucking angry women and men who showed up to tell the KKK and the alt right to fuck off today. There are millions of us who believe we are equal and just a handful of the hateful and paranoid terrorists who would try to tear this country apart. We will persevere.

For real, I know Trump didn’t fire Bannon over ideology. Trump is a white nationalists just like Bannon. He just praised Bannon and Breitbart and hoped they’d fight against ‘fake news’ (aka, real news) but it’s still a win to see him out of our capital. One more down, the rest to go. They’re disorganized, they have no loyalty, and when people push back and refuse to give them power, humanity wins.

This was a kick-ass week. I’m sorry for those injured, I’m sorry for the lives lost, but this is a fucking win for those who continue on. Let’s make sure it stays that way. Just because Bannon is out doesn’t mean he’s not about to attack everything we have from his new seat. Never be silent in the face of hate. Never cover it up. Never give them a chance to regroup and plant seeds in the dark. Battle now so we don’t have to have an actual war later.

Lol, and celebrate a victory when you get it. <3