Thank you everyone for the wonderful reviews! 28 and counting; I’m really glad you all liked the book and I’m already plotting the sequel (and the third one.)
So I’m kinda a pessimistic asshole and didn’t even realize it. O_o Hellcat hit bestseller in Gay Erotica and Paranormal Erotica while I was bitching about censorship and sex isn’t allowed and all that bullshit. XD Ah, reality check. Amazon might have actually fixed the whole KU thing, too. I’m still not sure what the hell is up with their ads, but I’m seeing erotica ads on erotica now, although they seem to be completely segregated from other genres outside of erotica. As for page reads, they’re counting for a 101,000 word book. I’m not so sure if the same can be said for short fiction, but that could be why so many short books have bonus stories just to be safe. I may be looking back at the program depending.
I haven’t looked at writing to market for a long time now; I’ve just been doing my own shit and trying to block the world out. It’s exhausting trying to ‘fit,’ and much easier to ignore it all and just write (the song of a dying artist. @[email protected] Don’t get trapped here.) There are actually a fair amount of erotic novels and novellas in erotica. Well written, sexy books who have cornered the market by providing both story and titillation—such a great word, btw. The majority on the front page of erotica is MF or MFM, but still, that doesn’t mean MM doesn’t have a place; it just means it’s waiting for the opportunity.
I’ve been fighting too long, I think. I expect everything to be a battle because I was fighting myself, fighting the mold toxicity, fighting PTSD, fighting my immune system. Blah. Everything has been a battle and although I know I’m on the other side, when I find myself uncertain, I default to old thought patterns. Here’s to not doing that so much. XD When I think about it, I’m actually not sure how to do most things without fighting or exhausting myself. Isn’t it just so much easier to know what you want when someone says you can’t have it?
You know what I think about when I bring up PTSD? How I don’t think about PTSD anymore. Fucking winning.
Demon Arms and Sorcerer Slayer
Okay, I’m totally falling in love with this series all over again. You don’t even understand. I forgot how broken and beautiful these characters are, and how much I wanted to build this world. As I go through what’s already written and apply the draft process I developed when writing Hellcat, I’m truly finding the roots of the story, the characters, and bringing the drama in the way I failed to do the first draft. I’m finding the story in the story, and it’s awesome.
I’ve decided to tackle The Paranormal Academy For Troubled Boys series a different way. I had two different visions for this series. One was how Demon Arms was presented… sort of. XD Lol, a love story. Except, Wylie didn’t even meet Dorian until so far in, and if I stuck with my initial plan, it would have been even later, but I was trying to follow a format of how most romances are presented. I assumed Sorcerer Slayer and every book that follows would have that same format, which is partly why Sorcerer Slayer is dragging. I keep trying to make it something it’s not.
What was Demon Arms supposed to be initially? A serial. A long serial in a paranormal world with drama of soap opera proportions, heartbreak, characters moving back and forth, and just returning to this world again and again. I’m so frustrated with Sorcerer Slayer because I keep trying to make it fit into the ‘boy falls for boy and it’s love so end story’ format, when it’s really a story of many characters who interact, fight crazy stuff outside the safety of the Academy walls, and some fall in love too. This is one of those epic world stories full of mini stories, not some easy to separate romance that only focuses on certain characters at a time.
This probably won’t be able to be read as a stand-alone—and let me say how dangerous that can be if you don’t have the fans. O_o Most series try to have each book be a stand alone so someone will pick up any book and hopefully read another because they like it. I will seriously be writing something like Demon Bonded where you can’t just pick up Apprentice Saga and assume you’re going to know all the details, but you can know enough to enjoy the plot. Because that’s what this series really is. It’s new adult paranormal action with romance included, not defined by romance. It’s drama, life, craziness. A TV series instead of made for TV movie. XD
I thought I’d be changing to this format by the third book. You know, have the Wylie and Dorian story, the Fox and Vincent story, and then start jumping into the overarching plot while focusing on Theo’s new love, then Justin, Raider, etc, etc. I think I’m taking that jump now instead of fucking around trying to make this book into something it doesn’t want to be. The events of Sorcerer Slayer are going to spread across 2, possibly 3 books by the time it’s done, and they will flow seamlessly into the next book with Adam showing up with a new crate and Wylie and Dorian at Dorian’s family house because we’re going to be with these characters and follow them along as their story unfolds. Each book is going to be between 100,000 – 150,000 words, and I’m pretty fucking sure they’re going to be written much faster now that I’m allowing the story to be what it is, instead of what I thought it should be.
No, I am never as fucking smart as I want to be. I do eventually learn. Usually… Hopefully? XD Just to remind everyone, Demon Arms was my first real novel and I had no fucking clue what I was doing then either. If I suddenly know what I’m doing, it’s probably a lie. Just sayin.
Super Secret Project
Also, I’m starting a secret project… well, as secret as a project can be as I blab it to a newsletter of 6000 peeps. XD But yes, I’m hoping to get everything lined up and I can tell you more later. I mean, it’s nothing fantastic—fine, it’s fantastic to me, I’m pretty sure readers will fucking love it, and I’m super excited, and I’m going to shut up about it now before I say too much. (That way if I overextend myself and it crashes and burns, no one will ever have to know my failure. @[email protected])
Enslaved on an alien planet
Nira. Astrum Industries’ newest charted planet. Freshly discovered. Wholly unexplored. But that won’t be the case for long. Led by Captain Alec Hamlin, a team of explorers make an emergency landing and are soon confronted by their first Niran native. A huge male Kríe packed with muscle and bearing small, black horns and fangs. Fortunately, he’s friendly. Or so he lets them believe.
With the help of his pack, the Kríe takes Alec’s team captive, intending to sell them for profit. But these Nirans aren’t just shrewd, they’re arrogant and domineering. And most of all, extremely sexual. Which explains why, on their journey to peddle their new wares, they feed Alec’s team a powerful aphrodisiac. Nothing like some decadent entertainment on the side. Soon the team finds themselves feverishly trying to resist the growing urge to get physical with their captors. But as passion prevails and unexpected bonds form, so much more is suddenly at stake. With no time left, will a shift in Kríe perspective be enough to change the fate of Alec’s team?
What Happens When You Fall For Your Best Friend?
Derren and Manny are an unlikely couple. Derren is the star of the Blues Hockey team and Manny, a bookish accountant. Oh, and only Derren is actually gay. But he doesn’t act it – using womanizing and partying to hide his true feelings. He has been doing this for so long; he has forgotten what it feels like to fall for someone. And
then he does, and he falls hard because Derren develops feelings for best friend Manny.But are
they reciprocated? Despite their growing relationship, Derren is unsure. One thing and another means the duo end up living together and it is increasingly not just as friends. On top of this, someone is causing trouble for the pair, threatening to expose their relationship for what it is and putting Derren’s career at risk.Will they be forced to come clean or will Manny finally confront his true feelings for Derren?
As Nate sleeps, someone else wears his skin.
Nate Bloom only lives half a life. Once he was an addict – but now he’s clean, and has been for years. Until he lost his husband and child… And now when night falls, another takes the wheel…
The other guy craves alcohol, drugs, sex and violence – which inevitably leads to a murder, one with Nate’s DNA left at the scene.
But Nate is no ordinary addict falling hard off the wagon – and he’ll have to learn to bring some kind of balance between the two sides of himself, if he’s going to get revenge for those he lost…
SELF POSSESSED is a sprawling supernatural thriller that harks to Stephen King by way of Iain Banks, and will leave you breathless until the very end.
One is accused. One is betrayed. One is a killer.
Midwife-apprentice, Kyle’s sheltered world is shattered when a patient’s mate flies into a murderous rage and attacks him. Kyle is rescued by a handsome alpha visitor, but as attraction blazes between the two men, and they fall into each other’s dreams, what starts as lust becomes something impossible. Kyle is a beta. He can’t be an alpha’s true mate. And yet, what else explains their connection?
Pine Creek Lake alpha, Shadow isn’t looking for his true mate when he stumbles across a beta being attacked in the middle of the night. But when a simple rescue reveals a chain of possible murders, Shadow must learn the truth about the man in his dreams before it’s too late. Something is driving alphas in the Blackcreek pack to rage and die young. Is Kyle as ignorant as he pretends, or is he hiding a dangerous secret?
As Kyle and Shadow work together to discover the truth, both men are forced to question their deepest assumptions about themselves and each other. Are they fated mates? Is Kyle living a lie? And when the truth is revealed, will Kyle have the courage to face it before Shadow suffers the same death as the others?