Blog

Demon Arms Poll Results and Goodies To Read 👻

Hey, babes! <3

Hellcat’s first draft is done. I’m in the process of prettying it up and getting a cover ready. Also working on a cover for the fabulous Wendy (who I need to email back ^^;) Also starting a fun little smut fic of the exclusive kind on the website where Raider is passed around for a while. First scene is already up. Good times.

Poll results

You know how sometimes you feel like you’re stuck with two choices, and then someone comes along in an angelic voice and goes ‘Why not both?’ Yup, that’s where I am right now.

Why not both? The Paranormal Academy for Troubled Boys is one of those series that has a message for everyone, just some people can’t hear it because of the sex or the swears. I think of it like some people are inflicted with this terribly painful illness where every time they hear a profanity or come across graphic sex scenes, they cringe. Writing clean is like writing for the human-impaired. They can’t be comfortable with themselves enough to realize words don’t hurt them; their perception of words hurt them. And that’s okay cuz they still want to read a story too, one which doesn’t make them cringe. Lol, or not to offend the fuck out of everyone reading this, let’s just say they don’t like explicit books and they have a right not to. XD

So, this has now led to the idea of creating a ‘clean’ Demon Arms book under a new pen name. And when I set up Patreon, I would set up 2. One under the Sadie Sins pen name where the story received for a $1 a month would be the explicit Dorian Black story, and the story under the ‘clean’ pen name would be the censored Dorian Black. Why do both? I still want to reach as wide and audience as possible with Patreon which means nothing adult, but also because the responses from my readers (especially the emails) revealed a story the poll didn’t.

Sadie, don’t stop writing smut!

Don’t worry, babes, I will not. I think writing smut is actually saving the world—I know, so lofty for a fuck fic. Let me explain.

When I walk into a bookstore, I see the culture wars on the shelves. How to step on backs to win in business arose a new market of how to win at business without being a shark. Books claiming health comes from eating vegetarian brought books that said to only eat vegan, which brought books of Paleo (to the cries of I need some fucking meat) to books to eat air—this is a real thing. It’s like watching a conversation or argument right in front of you on those shelves. You know the conversation that has to happen in the dark because society makes people so ashamed? Erotica. Sex. Romance has some leeway, cuz hey, sex is alright if it’s ‘love.’ Like saying having fingers are okay if you only use them for typing, otherwise cover them up and hide them away. What’s wrong with your fingers? Nothing, and there is nothing wrong with sex.

Marketing is extra dangerous about this kind of thing because it has the power to create cultural and societal movements through perception. Marketing creates an illusion that all your friends and neighbors and anyone in the know is following a trend. Peer pressure—they warn you about it with bullies but not with marketing. The Internet exaggerates it–you’re familiar computer screen telling you that the huge world of the Internet believes this. Sometimes marketing goes the opposite; only the elite few know about this secret. Be one of us and be special.

It doesn’t take much for an idea to sink in that it’s a norm. When you hear a million people are into a new exercise fad, you don’t think wow, out of the billions of people on the planet, only 1 million means it’s less than 0.01% of the population. Our brains don’t jump that way. A million is everyone and you’re weird for not doing it too.

Censorship is one of those things where they want you to think everyone feels this way which is why all the big platforms have to follow suit. They don’t have conversations about it, they just erase what they don’t like. They have to or their readers will revolt—it’s not for religious reasons to satisfy a small percent of the population who morally judges the rest of us. No, it’s totally a business move. (this is sarcasm, just in case it’s not clear. XD) Censorship is for the uncomfortable—the percent of people insecure about their bodies to the point they need explicit sex to disappear from the market for them to feel safe. The same way bigots need gay people or poc to disappear so they can feel safe about the world they live in.

Why do I compare these? Because it’s the same to me. Something natural in the human form is singled out and labeled ‘unnatural’ and then ethics and morals and gods and even science (there were movements to try and prove through science different races weren’t really human so not worthy of equal rights) are all created to justify those beliefs. Ethnic cleansing and genocide still happen to this day among so many people who are okay with themselves and others. When Trump was elected, it made it feel like every neighbor you had might be a white supremacist if you lived in America because millions voted for him. It’s not the case but it’s how the human mind is limited in its perception. A million = everyone. One bad thing on the news is happening everywhere. One rational reason to hurt many is accepted because it’s seen to be accepted already.

So in censorship I see consequence of normalizing self shame and self hate. Sex is normal and healthy, and sex fantasies are just as much so, no matter the form they come in. It’s why I focus on taboo subjects because someone has to show that it’s okay. It’s normal—and it’s fucking sexy to write! Not being allowed to have those fantasies is far more detrimental than whatever ‘eroding of civilization’ the fear mongers trot out when they cry for censorship. Repression leads to shame, self hate, suicide and disconnect from the body. There are still cultures where they think being gay or gender fluid is a crime punishable by death. It can make it scary to notice gay books being censored more than straight ones because those censoring are deciding some ideas are okay only if they’re between a man and a woman.

Censorship feeds those dangerous ideas that being normal isn’t normal and deserves to be destroyed. It can compel someone with absolutely normal sexual urges to go into a gay club in Florida and start shooting. Censorship creates the next generation of broken people who don’t even understand the message is a lie, because the push back against that message isn’t on the shelves. It’s hidden away in the gutter and dark ‘protecting’ people from their natural thoughts.

Censorship asks normal people to not be themselves so others can be comfortable. Ridiculous. We shouldn’t be cutting off our limbs to make those uncomfortable with their bodies feel okay about the world. You just bleed out because you’re not allowed to be whole, and the broken still hate themselves because they can’t accept their sexuality, or they can’t stop feeling their self identity is infringed upon when other people exist naturally with a different sexuality, or skin color, or language (insert irrational reason here) than their conceived norm.

Censorship and self hate aren’t norms, they just appear to be because millions are still quick to hate themselves and fit themselves into little ugly boxes to make those around them happy–or more, to have the angry people leave them the fuck alone. Censorship takes money from those who write things being censored–it’s an attack on livelihoods. Those okay with the world don’t ask for censorship or the erasing of ideas. Only those not okay, only those angry, full of judgement, self hate directed outward demand others be different.

And if all those demands were gone? If we were allowed to be how we are in a natural state not ashamed of self, our bodies, our skin, our urges, would we hurt others so much? I don’t think so. You already stop hurting yourself when you accept who you are. That’s one person every day who is hurt less. I bet the number is exponential when it’s everyone.

So, in this clean project, I just want to offer a little grain of hope that if you learn to love yourself as you are, and allow others to be as they are, you won’t suffer so much. The same message you find in Demon Arms, just translated for those who cringe.

Lol, that was a wall of text. This was supposed to be a short newsletter since I woke up late. Huh, that’s what I get for tripping over the soapbox again. XD

Goodies down below. <3 Hope you enjoy.

The Detective’s Pleasure – $0.99

“You’ll kneel for me without me having to tell you to. And when you do, you’ll feel so much better. Trust me.”
– Detective Sam Roberts

Officer Ryan Bennett: An ambitious and smart young officer on Houston’s police force. He’s pursuing a promotion to the city’s elite SWAT team with a single mindedness that won’t accept any outcome but success. But Ryan wants more than a coveted position on SWAT. He wants to give himself up to a strong Dominant who will make him shudder with pleasure beneath a firm yet loving hand. Unfortunately, Ryan has had nothing but failure in that part of his life. Now, he’s hidden that dream away, and refuses to let anyone close enough to see what he truly desires.

Detective Sam Roberts: Cool and calm, Detective Sam Roberts is good at reading people, during the day as a detective and at night as a Dom. He sees past the hard layer of arrogance surrounding Officer Ryan Bennett to the hurt submissive hiding beneath. He wants to help Ryan, even though the stubborn young man resists him. He’s determined to help Ryan embrace the soft, giving nature of his submissive side. If Sam is successful, will he give the young officer the very thing he’s wanted for so long?

GAY: 20 Stories Man on Man First Time – $0.99

20 of the filthiest m/m stories with the biggest men all in one box set!

 

 

 

 

 

 

Deep Magic: A Mythological Romance – Free

Where does magic end and love begin?

Oliver Evans spent his youth spinning one tall tale after another until it got him over his head in trouble. Returning as an adult to his grandmother’s cottage in Aberdaron, Olly is determined to put his past behind him and settle down. But the misty Llŷn Peninsula hides dangerous secrets. Olly is torn between the Longing, a powerful force driving him away from the only home he has ever known, and the growing conviction that the merman prince of his childhood make-believe is real–and in desperate need of Olly’s help.

There is more truth in Olly’s stories than he realises. If he is to have any chance of righting past wrongs and rescuing his prince, Olly must navigate the truth in his old stories and discover the magic right in front of him. But Olly has a powerful enemy on the ​Llŷn, an ancient king who would like to end Olly’s story-telling permanently.

Written for the M/M Romance Groups 2015 Don’t Read in the Closet event, Deep Magic is a free gay romance novel produced with the support and effort of members of the M/M Romance Group. A fantasy romance with a gothic bent, Deep Magic will take you deep into Welsh mythology and folklore, featuring the morgen, Welsh mermen, and the notorious water-horse, the Ceffyl Dwr. Deep Magic contains adult situations and should be read with discretion. The story began in Deep Magic continues in Morgen Curse and Morgen Song.

Important Question About Demon Arms 💟

Would you read a non-explicit (vanilla) story of the paranormal academy guys?

 

Hey peeps,

I have a question for you. A poll, actually. Would you read a non-explicit (vanilla) story of the paranormal academy guys?

Okay, so I want to set up a Patreon but I have a lot of difficulty with the idea of something for nothing. It doesn’t sit well with me. Pride, what have you, yeah. I write for a living so let me give you a story. But Patreon is difficult for adult content providers. They bury them, basically. You can’t find them through search engines on the site or outside of it. It basically cripples any adult provider (you know, to protect children. I’m not sure how all these kids are getting jobs and running the economy but instead of locking kids from adult content, we pretend adult content doesn’t exist. It’s an interesting system.) So, if I want to actually use Patreon effectively, I need to keep within their content guidelines for anything I post on there.

Enter The Glamorous Dorian Black Paranormal Series. <3 I’ve been kicking around this idea for a while, ever since Dorian insisted he really wants to be a magical stylist. It’s his dream now to glamour people gorgeous and he’s allowed to dream without sparking (thank you, Wylie.) I already have the first book all planned out. It runs along side the Paranormal Academy for Troubled Boys (PATB) but while PATB focuses on romance and an overarching plot started with the discovery of Dante, Dorian’s glamorous story is more a mini series of adventures, mysteries, and magic gone wrong. It’ll be all the guys from the Academy, some new characters outside it, and Dorian having a lot of pissy freakouts as things keep going wrong, his clients end up dead, and he’s not allowed to quit. And you know Dorian, he’d rather drown himself than ask for help. XD I think it’ll be fun and I think the plot is strong enough that I can get away without any graphic scenes. But, there isn’t much point to it if no one is interested enough to read. Ultimately, this is for the fans.

These are my incentives so far as I try to figure out what people might enjoy in a Patreon. I’m thinking character cards of all the guys from the Paranormal Academy of Troubled Boys, which I could release one a month to go with the whole Patreon thing, and posters of the same. I need to figure out pricing of everything first to make sure it all fits, but for the lower level stuff I could give away digital downloads, and the higher donations can get physical copies of things. Of course, it would be nothing pornographic but it would be the Academy guys. And, of course, anyone who donates as little as a $1 a month would get monthly episode installments of the Glamorous Dorian Black as it’s written.

When KU broke and I faced the fact it wasn’t going to fix itself, I looked at Patreon and ultimately decided to do a subscription site instead because I felt it was too much of a letdown for my current readers with Patreon’s adult limiting policies. I didn’t want to put my financial future in the hands of a website that might decide to censor me out of existence, not after dealing with all the censorship with Amazon and other platforms. At the same time I realized $10 for a subscription is a lot for many of my readers. I’m hoping this will be a compromise. A dollar a story. It took me a year to write Demon Arms, and it’s taking me the same amount of time to write Sorcerer Slayer. I love the world of the Academy, I love the characters, and I know there are a lot of fans who feel the same way. I’m hoping I can use Patreon to give readers a monthly Academy fix without me needing to write a novel in that time.

Please, take a click on the poll and let me know how you feel about it. I’m at the last leg of Sorcerer Slayer, just finishing up Hellcat, and I want to get this Patreon situation sorted while I’m in the process of editing Sorcerer Slayer before publishing (the best laid plans and all that.) I’d love to hear your feedback. I can’t seem to figure out how to allow people to comment on the poll, but you can comment on the post at the bottom.

Okay, onto the goodies this week!

The Groom And His Groom — $0.99

Marriage Might Be The Only Way To Get The Guy… Even If Neither Remember Getting Married

 

 

 

 

 

In Pain and Blood — preorder

It wasn’t meant to be like this.

Dylan’s life in the spellster tower has everything he should want: magical knowledge, safety from the King’s Hounds and frequent clandestine affairs with women. All at the cost of his freedom. So when the chance to leave the tower—even as a leashed weapon for the King’s Army—arises, he seizes it.

When his first scouting mission goes awry, Dylan is left alone in a hostile world with the tower a distant beacon of safety. Only the flirtatious Tracker, an elven man whose very presence awakens Dylan’s long-repressed desire, can help him return to his old life before the crown discovers his unleashed status.

But the risk of being branded a deserter may be the least of his concerns as whispers of an armed presence in the North threatens his home. Dylan must rely on Tracker to protect him even as everything he thought he knew begins to unravel around them.

 

My Broken Angel — Free

For those new to my site, you can read any of the freebies on this page just so long as you have a free membership. There was a little confusion last week, and I apologize for any frustration. I added a note on the site to clarify. It’s liability, honestly. I need to protect myself from the crazies who think sex is the devil and its existence is an attack on the minds of the innocent, which means disclaimers and keeping adult content behind walls so children can’t stumble in. Even though laws where I live should support me, the world doesn’t actually work that way, so better to cover my ass.

When The World Kicks Your Butt… 🌛

Rushing :O

Quick newsletter this week. I have a concert to get to! @[email protected] One I thought was on Sunday but is actually today. Lol. A mad rush to Boston, always fun. <3 New freebie below.

The cost of a $0.99 book could be a home for a family

Asking for help. I don’t know if anyone else has this issue but I do, and it’s always when asking for things you really need. Like a roof over your head or money for food in your stomach. And for some reason, the longer you live barely scraping by, the harder it is to ask. Thankfully, there is an amazing way around this psychological problem; you ask for help on the behalf of someone else.

Patricia is doing that for her three kids because it is so hard for her to ask for herself. She’s been scraping by as a single mom while being an amazingly generous person. I actually met her when the Trump thing happened and she was just one of those powerful, amazing voices for reason and human compassion in the face of orange bullshit. When I saw this unfold on her facebook, I wanted to make sure she’s not homeless this Christmas. Her landlord/property manager is hustling her and she can’t afford to stay in her home. She has less than a month to vacate and if she doesn’t meet this guy’s demands for money, he’s not going to give her a reference for the next place.

Unfortunately, there is rarely justice in the real world. I think that’s why I like books so much; we get to write those bad guys into jail cells and good people into happily ever afters. Patricia and her family need whatever help you can contribute, and time is really short on this to move an entire household.

Please donate.

If you can’t donate, please share her FundRazr on Facebook/twitter/email whatever social media you can think of. Every little bit helps, and the more who know, the more who can lend a hand.

Work Hard Play Harder – $0.99

Only Thing Better Than Having A Great Lover Is Having Two

Up until now, CEO Harold Carpenter’s life has been all about business. Unable to come out as gay in the corporate world, his private life has taken a back seat.

Affairs have always come second place to work, but ambitious executive Rex seeks to change this. He is determined to get more from his boss, both in terms of a relationship and his career.

But Harold’s world is unexpectedly rocked by the arrival of Aaron, a hot new intern, who inadvertently walks in on him and Rex.

Before long, Aaron becomes entwined in both Rex and Harold’s lives – both for business and pleasure.

Whilst the trio enjoy each other’s company, pressure mounts on Harold; Rex’s naked ambition and the need to come clean about his sexuality potentially threatens their fun.

My Broken Angel – monthly free read at sadiesinsbooks.com

I didn’t know that one bloody kiss could change my life forever. I‘ve found my soulmate and nothing makes sense anymore. He’s a half demon, half angel who just got out of the pit. Danyal doesn’t know how to be human—Worse, he doesn’t know how to keep living. There’s nothing I won’t do for him but I’m only human and when Danyal runs, he flies.

🎃 MM Treats! (No tricks) 🎃

Boo!

I’m apparently in bitch mode. >_> Unless a seller on Amazon has a good long term rating, even for books, don’t go there. Just don’t do it. 9 complaints of fraud in the week I’m waiting for a book that turns out to be an empty package sent to Florida. I don’t live in Florida. Because fucktard scammers.

What are people doing for Halloween? I haven’t even decorated yet or carved a pumpkin. @[email protected] I’m such a procrastinator. I’m going to go get those cool webs a little later today—I seriously love the webs. We hung them off the ceiling last year and they looked amazingly creepy. I’m also fighting the guilt of giving small packets of diabetes to children. My twin brother has diabetes, I have hypoglycemia and our birth mother had diabetes; this stuff isn’t getting better but our culture continues to feed the epidemic. But… I don’t want to be the douche-bag handing out anything not candy either. >_> I have a hoard of apples from apple picking… I dunno. I feel like they’d end up on the driveway right after. Ah, the social obligations to feed strange children sugar.

I have beautified… simplified? the updates page. Aka, I actually now have a system of updates so you can quickly see the most recent ones and my weekly goals. Goals I update on Sunday and since it’s Saturday, you only see the one for Intangible. Because, let’s face it, I’m not going to pretend I’m so on top of shit I can plan beyond a week. Sometimes the muse smacks me over the head, the other time life happens. But I think this is going to not only be clearer for subscribers but also keep me on track.

Have a feeling Hellcat is going to take 2 more weeks to write and have a final edit. Way past Halloween. I don’t want to rush it though. I don’t want to ruin my own efforts by forcing a deadline. It’s coming out super cute/hot/action adventurey, if I do say so myself. (A mess? Does that sound like a mess? XD) Anywho… You can read the first 3 scenes for free if you haven’t already.

Goodies of the week <3

Some might be sweet but not cavity inducing. (Oh, the lameness will never stop.) Some sexy horror just for Halloween too. Ooh…

Costume Party- $0.99

On Halloween, romance hides behind a mask…

Frat boys Tony and Ray fell for each other when they were both college freshmen, but neither of them knew. At a Halloween costume party in a gay nightclub, they’re drawn together, masked by their costumes. When they tumble into bed together later that night, the everything comes off. With identities revealed, the situation heats up.

Neither of them can undo what happened between them, but after years of being best friends, the misunderstandings begin to pile up. Will old habits tear them apart before they even have a chance, or can true love really beat all odds on Halloween?

Costume Party is a friends-to-lovers story about two frat boys who find love with each other during Halloween. It has explicit scenes and a HEA ending is assured!

 

Leather Head- $0.99

Gable is just playing dress up for San Francisco’s leather S&M fair, but Leather Head isn’t playing. His friend Shawn warns him to be careful what he’s advertising for since the community has been rocked by four brutal murders. Gable still thinks it’s all in fun, but it isn’t. Desire can be deadly.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Saviors: Duty and Sacrifice 1 (The God Jars Saga)

Trust is more terrifying than any weapon.

Valis’ father wants to sacrifice him to the evil God, Qos. His uncle wants to use him as a magical battery and sex slave. All Valis wants is to live in peace, without fear of constant abuse. When he escapes his father’s sacrificial knife and runs away, he lands in the camp of his two saviors, Kerac and Darolen, holy Aesriphos warriors powerful enough to put his family in their place.

But trusting anyone could be fatal, and the warriors ask the impossible: to sell his father’s farmstead and abandon his old life to join their monastery.

They’re his only hope and when he learns to trust them, they’re the father figures he always wanted, but Valis isn’t sure he’s strong enough to put aside his fear and start over.

The M/M romance in God Jars is a very slow burn. The God Jars Saga contains explicit material including violence, abuse, and M/M sexual encounters, and is not advised for anyone under the age of 18.

A Gladiator’s Sword- $0.99

When Marius hands Ezra a Roman gladius with a stylized T in the hilt, he tells Ezra that it’s special. Ezra finds out just how special when he wakes up to a gladiator in his house. He soon learns that like Marius, Titus prayed to Janus to give him a new life and the god complied. Now that he’s met the man to go along with the sword, Ezra realizes that he yearns to share his world, and his life, with the gladiator.

Titus knew nothing except the arena and his few good friends in the cohort. He follows Marius’ lead, trusting the god to deliver him from his brutal life. When he realizes he’s in Ezra’s house, and that Ezra has his sword, he quickly learns that the modern world is good. Bacon? Hot water? What more could a gladiator want? Getting to know Ezra, and exploring his delicious body would make an excellent start.

 

 

 

Saint Brig- Free

Brig- a young man tossed out of his parent’s home on graduation day. Why? For daring to be himself. Unwilling to conform to their religion, or pretend to be straight, Brig leaves home on a journey that will test his fortitude in ways he never thought possible.

Ending up in Liberty Park, in downtown Salt Lake City, he finds it filled with other homeless kids. His sheltered upbringing forces him to grow up quickly. Another street urchin, Gabriel, takes him under his wing, offering him his only glimpse of happiness during a heady, 24 hour period of time.

Saint Brig is a short story about a young gay man forced to grow up fast- too fast. Will Brig escape his tragic fate, or get lost in the shuffle of other forgotten youth, doomed to a life on the streets?

 

 

No Filter- $0.99

Indy will do anything to prevent his mobster ex from finding him. Their last encounter left Indy recovering for months in the hospital, and ever since he’s become an expert at hiding in plain sight. Determined to stay under the radar, he takes on a new identity and moves from place to place. His life has no room for friendships, let alone love, so he keeps his heart firmly closed. After all, he has nothing to offer but a damaged body and a broken soul. Plus, he’s so done with men. Until he meets the man who breaks through all his defenses.

Former Army Medic Noah came back damaged from his last tour—in more than one way. Between supporting his best friend-with-benefits Josh who’s struggling with PTSD, dealing with his own issues, and the stress of his job as a physician assistant, rebuilding his life seems impossible. There’s little time for what Noah needs, let alone for what he wants. When he meets Indy, Noah discovers what he wants more than anything: for Indy to stay. But how will a relationship with Indy work when Noah needs Josh as well?

Indy never expected the strong, confident Noah to be as damaged and broken as himself. But what will happen if he starts letting Noah in? Indy knows he should run to protect Noah and Josh.

Noah needs Indy to stay more than anything. But will what little he has to offer be enough to make Indy trust him and stay?

No Filter is a steamy M/M romance featuring an open relationship (no cheating!) that ends with a HFN, but with the promise of a HEA. It’s the first book in the No Shame Series, and is not a stand-alone novel. It contains hot sex, a hint of a ménage, lots of talk about hot sex, flashbacks of said hot sex, and…Oh well, you get the idea. Also: trigger warning for mentions of sexual abuse.

Taken By Beasts- $0.99

This collection contains five never before released, steamy paranormal stories of monsters and the innocent, handsome young men they call prey *cough* boyfriend, written by the mistress of dubcon, Sadie Sins. Inside you’ll find five unique storylines containing friends to lovers, straight to gay, mild BDSM, and even a few group, taboo moments. It has furry full moon transformations, haunted houses, Halloween parties, evil witches, horny sorcerers, sexy demons, a cat shifter in distress, the rare minotaur, a stalking vampire, and a pack of rude, trash talking werewolves that don’t take no for an answer. Not to mention, the promise of a happy, claw biting ending. This book will make you downright beg to be a victim.

Halloween has never been quite so naughty as when you’re Taken by Beasts.

18+ For explicit man on monster action, graphic language, breeding, growls, tears, and over 66,000 words of hot, sexy fun.

 

 

Queeromance ink is having a sale!

LGBTQ books of all genres on sale this weekend.

This Really Is My Favorite Time of Year 🍂🌻🍂

Hey babes,

The world is on fire with so many gorgeous colors and change is burning through the air.

It’s been an interesting week. Interesting in the sense I haven’t done much of anything yet I feel like the world has opened up. My health has reached a place where the worst thing that happens to me when I’m hit by the allergies is mild congestion, a little body pain, and a flare of anxiety. That’s it. I don’t see it changing, I don’t see me ever becoming sick like I was the last 4 years, and I spent this week in a limbo as I came to understand that.

My anxiety is not based in reality but in illness. Fear is not real; it lives in the mind. It’s been a mind blowing week, peeps.

I’m trying to figure out how to live life not running from fear—PTSD, illness and never having enough. I have no idea. I’m learning to not identify with the conflict in my life or around me. Someone threw a cup of coffee into my car at my brother who was driving after they cut him off, the Republicans’ passed a budget bill destined to fuck over anyone not filthy rich, and I think I clicked together why my adoption records were sealed after some recovered memories keep popping up. Huge things that could have me cycling in my brain freaking out, arguing with imaginary people as I fight myself. That’s not where I am anymore. I’m very aware that I’m not doing that anymore, that I’m choosing to let go of things, the big ‘me’ where I go, ‘MY car, MY poor brother, MY pain, MY past, MY fear, MINE, MINE, ME!’ That’s not who I am no matter how loud and distracting those things try to be. I’m learning to not be the events and fears in my life—past, current or future—but I’m not sure what that leaves me with.

Why do we do things if we’re not running from pain or trauma? Considering I’ve had PTSD since a toddler, it’s my next journey to discover. What I know for sure is it is so much easier to breathe without that little, hurt voice sucking up all the oxygen as it relives it pain over and over again insisting it’s important. As a writer of books, I know humans define themselves by their conflict. What we ‘overcome’ we decide is who we are. It is so fucking nice to be free of that. I am not my pain or struggle; I get to be something more.

There are things I struggle with needlessly I really want to address this year. Like asking for help. It’s kinda mind boggling when I think all I have done to survive while sick and starting a business and my inability to not only ask for help but also accept it. It’s not a unique problem, either. I know plenty of people who struggle with this. I was unfortunately surrounded by those who would reinforce this idea by treating me and others like shit when we did dare ask for help because they couldn’t face the perceived weakness within they felt when they needed help. I have shed those people from my life years ago, yet the bad software still remains within. I don’t know how to allow myself to have fun. I know how to do things I perceive are ‘important’ or ‘worthy’ or ‘industrious’ or will make money, but I have no idea how to relax and have fun. There’s no one keeping me from it but myself. I am apparently very unyielding when it comes to me while my generosity knows no bounds to the people around me. It is a difficult way to live.

You know what I have been indulging in this week? Pho. There is this amazing little place in Springfield and every time I have enough cash to get a bowl, I feel full of sunshine and happy.

Speaking of Generosity

The death count for Puerto Rico looks like it could be up to 450 as a direct cause to the hurricane. Clean water is still scarce; there is a fear it’s being sourced from contaminated ground water as it is. FEMA is providing a little over 1/2 a million meals a day, meaning more than 3 million people are not eating and may not have been eating since the hurricane hit. If we leave it up to Trump, these people will die. Even if it’s a dollar a week, it’s still something for those who currently have nothing.

Price Cliffs

Totally flaked. So Demon Bonded, every episode will now be $0.99. I’m doing this for every serial episode of all my books. I’m taking a new approach to all this- part of the whole letting fear go- and we’ll see how it goes. Every book that goes wide is going to see a price drop, you know, once I get to it. XD

I think this is how I’m going to deal with the Bargain book thing I used to have on the website. Once a book is out of KU those first 3 months, I want it cheaper. I want to be looking forward and motivating myself to write the next book instead of clinging to the older stuff. I know I’ve been clinging these last months as I try to edit and erase my mold allergy from my writing. I still can’t get over that mental place–I want the books the best they can be– but I can at least make everything more affordable once I do get past my neurotic brain.

I apologize if this is difficult on those who paid full price for these books already. I want to thank you for supporting me – let’s be clear, I seriously need the money. I’m actually going to be setting up a Patreon soon. I need to be willing to let people pay for my books when they can.

Peace, darlings.

~Sadie Sins

Moving In by Karma Kingsley

Rye Winters lives life on his own terms. Even when his family disowned him for dropping out of medical school, he pushed forward for a career path that he loved. Nothing keeps Rye down…except that he’s gay and terrified to tell anyone. It’s the secret that haunts him, suffocating him to exhaustion. But it’s a secret he can’t trust with anyone. That is until Chase Evans. His RoomMatch pairing that changes his life and shows him just how gay he really is.

Chase Evans by most standards is a failure. He’s a failure at writing, a failure at socializing and a failure at love. In hopes of changing his path, he packs his bags and leaves Lexington, Virginia behind. With the help of the RoomMatch App, he finds himself a cheap apartment in Harlem, New York and a charming roommate that helps him to come out of his shell and his comfort zone. But things get wonky when he finds out his roommate may be a little friendlier than he can handle.

 

 

 

Fox Hunt by Zoe Perdita – $0.99

Edward Wilder’s life sucks. At 18, the fox shifter is homeless, trying to care for his baby sister, and since a group of hunter’s maimed him, he can’t even get a normal job. Things can’t get worse—until he witnesses a murder. Now the cops and criminals are on his ass, and he has nowhere to turn. Until Maxwell Strider shows up. Problem is, Max is a hunter, and Edward hates hunters.

Max wouldn’t take in a couple of foxes under normal circumstances. He may only hunt truly dangerous shadow folk, but that doesn’t mean he wants to open his home to a potential enemy. But he owes an old friend a favor, and Edward and the baby, Daisy, need his help.

Protecting Edward should be easy, but the fox wakes a desire Max never knew he possessed. A lust Edward seems to share—if only at night. But can he mend the hurt Edward faced in the past and earn the one thing he’s denied himself—a chance at a family—before it’s too late?

60K book contains: a sexy fox shifter and a too hot to handle hunter, enemies to lovers, graphic gay sex, sporadic violence and HEA.

 

Uncovering The Dragon by Van Cole – $0.99

Sometimes A Fresh Start Brings You Back To Who You Really Are

River Marsh is a young adult set to inherit his family’s century-old business.

But making progress is hard when River’s biggest secret – that he’s a dragon shifter – burns in his conscience. No longer welcome in his hometown, River relocates to Chicago where he works under an aloof boss who shares a similar secret as well as an intense, erotic passion that leaves the young protagonist wanting more.

Storm Woods, CEO of Woods Interior Solutions, has spent his life turning even the ugliest houses into masterpieces. His new, young assistant, River Marsh, possesses a spark that the designer hasn’t encountered in ages.

Unfortunately, professional situations make for sticky scenarios. But Storm, as his name suggests, is as daring as his designs.