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Demon Arms Poll Results and Goodies To Read 👻

Hey, babes! <3

Hellcat’s first draft is done. I’m in the process of prettying it up and getting a cover ready. Also working on a cover for the fabulous Wendy (who I need to email back ^^;) Also starting a fun little smut fic of the exclusive kind on the website where Raider is passed around for a while. First scene is already up. Good times.

Poll results

You know how sometimes you feel like you’re stuck with two choices, and then someone comes along in an angelic voice and goes ‘Why not both?’ Yup, that’s where I am right now.

Why not both? The Paranormal Academy for Troubled Boys is one of those series that has a message for everyone, just some people can’t hear it because of the sex or the swears. I think of it like some people are inflicted with this terribly painful illness where every time they hear a profanity or come across graphic sex scenes, they cringe. Writing clean is like writing for the human-impaired. They can’t be comfortable with themselves enough to realize words don’t hurt them; their perception of words hurt them. And that’s okay cuz they still want to read a story too, one which doesn’t make them cringe. Lol, or not to offend the fuck out of everyone reading this, let’s just say they don’t like explicit books and they have a right not to. XD

So, this has now led to the idea of creating a ‘clean’ Demon Arms book under a new pen name. And when I set up Patreon, I would set up 2. One under the Sadie Sins pen name where the story received for a $1 a month would be the explicit Dorian Black story, and the story under the ‘clean’ pen name would be the censored Dorian Black. Why do both? I still want to reach as wide and audience as possible with Patreon which means nothing adult, but also because the responses from my readers (especially the emails) revealed a story the poll didn’t.

Sadie, don’t stop writing smut!

Don’t worry, babes, I will not. I think writing smut is actually saving the world—I know, so lofty for a fuck fic. Let me explain.

When I walk into a bookstore, I see the culture wars on the shelves. How to step on backs to win in business arose a new market of how to win at business without being a shark. Books claiming health comes from eating vegetarian brought books that said to only eat vegan, which brought books of Paleo (to the cries of I need some fucking meat) to books to eat air—this is a real thing. It’s like watching a conversation or argument right in front of you on those shelves. You know the conversation that has to happen in the dark because society makes people so ashamed? Erotica. Sex. Romance has some leeway, cuz hey, sex is alright if it’s ‘love.’ Like saying having fingers are okay if you only use them for typing, otherwise cover them up and hide them away. What’s wrong with your fingers? Nothing, and there is nothing wrong with sex.

Marketing is extra dangerous about this kind of thing because it has the power to create cultural and societal movements through perception. Marketing creates an illusion that all your friends and neighbors and anyone in the know is following a trend. Peer pressure—they warn you about it with bullies but not with marketing. The Internet exaggerates it–you’re familiar computer screen telling you that the huge world of the Internet believes this. Sometimes marketing goes the opposite; only the elite few know about this secret. Be one of us and be special.

It doesn’t take much for an idea to sink in that it’s a norm. When you hear a million people are into a new exercise fad, you don’t think wow, out of the billions of people on the planet, only 1 million means it’s less than 0.01% of the population. Our brains don’t jump that way. A million is everyone and you’re weird for not doing it too.

Censorship is one of those things where they want you to think everyone feels this way which is why all the big platforms have to follow suit. They don’t have conversations about it, they just erase what they don’t like. They have to or their readers will revolt—it’s not for religious reasons to satisfy a small percent of the population who morally judges the rest of us. No, it’s totally a business move. (this is sarcasm, just in case it’s not clear. XD) Censorship is for the uncomfortable—the percent of people insecure about their bodies to the point they need explicit sex to disappear from the market for them to feel safe. The same way bigots need gay people or poc to disappear so they can feel safe about the world they live in.

Why do I compare these? Because it’s the same to me. Something natural in the human form is singled out and labeled ‘unnatural’ and then ethics and morals and gods and even science (there were movements to try and prove through science different races weren’t really human so not worthy of equal rights) are all created to justify those beliefs. Ethnic cleansing and genocide still happen to this day among so many people who are okay with themselves and others. When Trump was elected, it made it feel like every neighbor you had might be a white supremacist if you lived in America because millions voted for him. It’s not the case but it’s how the human mind is limited in its perception. A million = everyone. One bad thing on the news is happening everywhere. One rational reason to hurt many is accepted because it’s seen to be accepted already.

So in censorship I see consequence of normalizing self shame and self hate. Sex is normal and healthy, and sex fantasies are just as much so, no matter the form they come in. It’s why I focus on taboo subjects because someone has to show that it’s okay. It’s normal—and it’s fucking sexy to write! Not being allowed to have those fantasies is far more detrimental than whatever ‘eroding of civilization’ the fear mongers trot out when they cry for censorship. Repression leads to shame, self hate, suicide and disconnect from the body. There are still cultures where they think being gay or gender fluid is a crime punishable by death. It can make it scary to notice gay books being censored more than straight ones because those censoring are deciding some ideas are okay only if they’re between a man and a woman.

Censorship feeds those dangerous ideas that being normal isn’t normal and deserves to be destroyed. It can compel someone with absolutely normal sexual urges to go into a gay club in Florida and start shooting. Censorship creates the next generation of broken people who don’t even understand the message is a lie, because the push back against that message isn’t on the shelves. It’s hidden away in the gutter and dark ‘protecting’ people from their natural thoughts.

Censorship asks normal people to not be themselves so others can be comfortable. Ridiculous. We shouldn’t be cutting off our limbs to make those uncomfortable with their bodies feel okay about the world. You just bleed out because you’re not allowed to be whole, and the broken still hate themselves because they can’t accept their sexuality, or they can’t stop feeling their self identity is infringed upon when other people exist naturally with a different sexuality, or skin color, or language (insert irrational reason here) than their conceived norm.

Censorship and self hate aren’t norms, they just appear to be because millions are still quick to hate themselves and fit themselves into little ugly boxes to make those around them happy–or more, to have the angry people leave them the fuck alone. Censorship takes money from those who write things being censored–it’s an attack on livelihoods. Those okay with the world don’t ask for censorship or the erasing of ideas. Only those not okay, only those angry, full of judgement, self hate directed outward demand others be different.

And if all those demands were gone? If we were allowed to be how we are in a natural state not ashamed of self, our bodies, our skin, our urges, would we hurt others so much? I don’t think so. You already stop hurting yourself when you accept who you are. That’s one person every day who is hurt less. I bet the number is exponential when it’s everyone.

So, in this clean project, I just want to offer a little grain of hope that if you learn to love yourself as you are, and allow others to be as they are, you won’t suffer so much. The same message you find in Demon Arms, just translated for those who cringe.

Lol, that was a wall of text. This was supposed to be a short newsletter since I woke up late. Huh, that’s what I get for tripping over the soapbox again. XD

Goodies down below. <3 Hope you enjoy.

The Detective’s Pleasure – $0.99

“You’ll kneel for me without me having to tell you to. And when you do, you’ll feel so much better. Trust me.”
– Detective Sam Roberts

Officer Ryan Bennett: An ambitious and smart young officer on Houston’s police force. He’s pursuing a promotion to the city’s elite SWAT team with a single mindedness that won’t accept any outcome but success. But Ryan wants more than a coveted position on SWAT. He wants to give himself up to a strong Dominant who will make him shudder with pleasure beneath a firm yet loving hand. Unfortunately, Ryan has had nothing but failure in that part of his life. Now, he’s hidden that dream away, and refuses to let anyone close enough to see what he truly desires.

Detective Sam Roberts: Cool and calm, Detective Sam Roberts is good at reading people, during the day as a detective and at night as a Dom. He sees past the hard layer of arrogance surrounding Officer Ryan Bennett to the hurt submissive hiding beneath. He wants to help Ryan, even though the stubborn young man resists him. He’s determined to help Ryan embrace the soft, giving nature of his submissive side. If Sam is successful, will he give the young officer the very thing he’s wanted for so long?

GAY: 20 Stories Man on Man First Time – $0.99

20 of the filthiest m/m stories with the biggest men all in one box set!







Deep Magic: A Mythological Romance – Free

Where does magic end and love begin?

Oliver Evans spent his youth spinning one tall tale after another until it got him over his head in trouble. Returning as an adult to his grandmother’s cottage in Aberdaron, Olly is determined to put his past behind him and settle down. But the misty Llŷn Peninsula hides dangerous secrets. Olly is torn between the Longing, a powerful force driving him away from the only home he has ever known, and the growing conviction that the merman prince of his childhood make-believe is real–and in desperate need of Olly’s help.

There is more truth in Olly’s stories than he realises. If he is to have any chance of righting past wrongs and rescuing his prince, Olly must navigate the truth in his old stories and discover the magic right in front of him. But Olly has a powerful enemy on the ​Llŷn, an ancient king who would like to end Olly’s story-telling permanently.

Written for the M/M Romance Groups 2015 Don’t Read in the Closet event, Deep Magic is a free gay romance novel produced with the support and effort of members of the M/M Romance Group. A fantasy romance with a gothic bent, Deep Magic will take you deep into Welsh mythology and folklore, featuring the morgen, Welsh mermen, and the notorious water-horse, the Ceffyl Dwr. Deep Magic contains adult situations and should be read with discretion. The story began in Deep Magic continues in Morgen Curse and Morgen Song.

Important Question About Demon Arms 💟

Would you read a non-explicit (vanilla) story of the paranormal academy guys?


Hey peeps,

I have a question for you. A poll, actually. Would you read a non-explicit (vanilla) story of the paranormal academy guys?

Okay, so I want to set up a Patreon but I have a lot of difficulty with the idea of something for nothing. It doesn’t sit well with me. Pride, what have you, yeah. I write for a living so let me give you a story. But Patreon is difficult for adult content providers. They bury them, basically. You can’t find them through search engines on the site or outside of it. It basically cripples any adult provider (you know, to protect children. I’m not sure how all these kids are getting jobs and running the economy but instead of locking kids from adult content, we pretend adult content doesn’t exist. It’s an interesting system.) So, if I want to actually use Patreon effectively, I need to keep within their content guidelines for anything I post on there.

Enter The Glamorous Dorian Black Paranormal Series. <3 I’ve been kicking around this idea for a while, ever since Dorian insisted he really wants to be a magical stylist. It’s his dream now to glamour people gorgeous and he’s allowed to dream without sparking (thank you, Wylie.) I already have the first book all planned out. It runs along side the Paranormal Academy for Troubled Boys (PATB) but while PATB focuses on romance and an overarching plot started with the discovery of Dante, Dorian’s glamorous story is more a mini series of adventures, mysteries, and magic gone wrong. It’ll be all the guys from the Academy, some new characters outside it, and Dorian having a lot of pissy freakouts as things keep going wrong, his clients end up dead, and he’s not allowed to quit. And you know Dorian, he’d rather drown himself than ask for help. XD I think it’ll be fun and I think the plot is strong enough that I can get away without any graphic scenes. But, there isn’t much point to it if no one is interested enough to read. Ultimately, this is for the fans.

These are my incentives so far as I try to figure out what people might enjoy in a Patreon. I’m thinking character cards of all the guys from the Paranormal Academy of Troubled Boys, which I could release one a month to go with the whole Patreon thing, and posters of the same. I need to figure out pricing of everything first to make sure it all fits, but for the lower level stuff I could give away digital downloads, and the higher donations can get physical copies of things. Of course, it would be nothing pornographic but it would be the Academy guys. And, of course, anyone who donates as little as a $1 a month would get monthly episode installments of the Glamorous Dorian Black as it’s written.

When KU broke and I faced the fact it wasn’t going to fix itself, I looked at Patreon and ultimately decided to do a subscription site instead because I felt it was too much of a letdown for my current readers with Patreon’s adult limiting policies. I didn’t want to put my financial future in the hands of a website that might decide to censor me out of existence, not after dealing with all the censorship with Amazon and other platforms. At the same time I realized $10 for a subscription is a lot for many of my readers. I’m hoping this will be a compromise. A dollar a story. It took me a year to write Demon Arms, and it’s taking me the same amount of time to write Sorcerer Slayer. I love the world of the Academy, I love the characters, and I know there are a lot of fans who feel the same way. I’m hoping I can use Patreon to give readers a monthly Academy fix without me needing to write a novel in that time.

Please, take a click on the poll and let me know how you feel about it. I’m at the last leg of Sorcerer Slayer, just finishing up Hellcat, and I want to get this Patreon situation sorted while I’m in the process of editing Sorcerer Slayer before publishing (the best laid plans and all that.) I’d love to hear your feedback. I can’t seem to figure out how to allow people to comment on the poll, but you can comment on the post at the bottom.

Okay, onto the goodies this week!

The Groom And His Groom — $0.99

Marriage Might Be The Only Way To Get The Guy… Even If Neither Remember Getting Married






In Pain and Blood — preorder

It wasn’t meant to be like this.

Dylan’s life in the spellster tower has everything he should want: magical knowledge, safety from the King’s Hounds and frequent clandestine affairs with women. All at the cost of his freedom. So when the chance to leave the tower—even as a leashed weapon for the King’s Army—arises, he seizes it.

When his first scouting mission goes awry, Dylan is left alone in a hostile world with the tower a distant beacon of safety. Only the flirtatious Tracker, an elven man whose very presence awakens Dylan’s long-repressed desire, can help him return to his old life before the crown discovers his unleashed status.

But the risk of being branded a deserter may be the least of his concerns as whispers of an armed presence in the North threatens his home. Dylan must rely on Tracker to protect him even as everything he thought he knew begins to unravel around them.


My Broken Angel — Free

For those new to my site, you can read any of the freebies on this page just so long as you have a free membership. There was a little confusion last week, and I apologize for any frustration. I added a note on the site to clarify. It’s liability, honestly. I need to protect myself from the crazies who think sex is the devil and its existence is an attack on the minds of the innocent, which means disclaimers and keeping adult content behind walls so children can’t stumble in. Even though laws where I live should support me, the world doesn’t actually work that way, so better to cover my ass.

Demon Bonded #10 is Live! 🎉💥💖

Demon Bonded #10!

I know, finally! XD

Finally. You can’t come from a place of gratitude unless you stop where you are. I am full of gratitude to see this book out and be able to share it with you all. Ky, Lovely, Feral and Magnificent Night are back, along with the drama of their existence. I warned a little bit before that the format is changing. Demon Bonded started out as 10,000 word episodes of erotica mixed with plot. We’re going to be seeing a switch as plot takes center stage; the erotic nature is still there, more so in later books, but there is a story to tell and each episode will be getting longer because of it.

Thanks for hanging in there, loves. Your continued support has made this possible. An artist can be a fragile existence of doubts, fears, and insecurities. I do my best to overcome them all, but it is not a journey taken alone. Thanks for being here for it. As a result, Demon Bonded #10 will be enrolled in Kindle Unlimited for the first 3 months. I have a history of issues with this program, as most of you know. At the same time, I know many of my fans use KU because it’s affordable. You guys are more important than my rants and I want to make sure you can enjoy these stories. For real, there is no point writing if no one is reading.

Oh, so Demon Bonded is updated on the website; subscribers can now read the fully edited series. Three are available for Free Members: episode #1, and bonus episodes #1 + #2. Within the next week or so, I’ll be compiling the new versions, making new covers, and re-publishing Demencious Saga and Apprentice Saga, the Demon Bonded bundles, that way you don’t have to go out buying each episode (unless you really obsess over getting the new covers. XD) ARC readers, I’ll be sending an email with episode #10. I’m behind again, of course—pretty sure it’s a default at this point. <3

If you picked up a copy of Blackthorne by Sadie Sins…

Welcome. You’re now included in a mm (aka gay, man on man) romance and erotica book list. It’s a weekly list that usually includes deals on books in the mm genre of all types, as well as whatever topical stuff I react to at the moment. If this isn’t your thing, you are not obligated to remain signed up. If it is your thing, I’m glad to meet you and I hope you enjoy your reading. <3

~Sadie Sins

I’m actually going through the process of unsubscribing those who have never opened the emails. Mailing list services aren’t cheap and they charge by the subscriber. So if you suddenly stop getting those emails you’ve been ignoring, this would be why. ^^

Puerto Rico Needs Our Help

I’m going to come out and say it; I am one of the 50% (I’m certain this number is higher within the states) of Americans who didn’t know Puerto Rico is a territory of America until this disaster struck. It wasn’t something really stressed upon in my education, and it wasn’t talked about in the day to day of the household I grew up in. Maybe if they were allowed to vote, it would be different; suddenly red and blue would be rushing to manipulate the people of Puerto Rico for their vote and they’d be recognized. Because of my ignorance, and because I have readers in Puerto Rico, a few I have thankfully heard from to discover they’re well either through email or Facebook check ins, I wanted to learn more. I want to understand the weight of responsibility and where it’s held during a crisis like this for a territory of the United States.

I remember Hurricane Katrina; the looting, the rape, the starvation, the lost—so many people lost and never found again because the government took too long to act. Worse, they didn’t bother to care. I won’t name it racism; we all know it’s racism. No matter how many Black Lives memes try to breathe simple awareness, it feels like white lives are the only ones who get attention (or voting rights.) This week, it was the voices of the angry, offended white people over black people kneeling during an anthem. You couldn’t even have a black person be ‘silent’ in their protest without the screams of others to block them out. All while people, US citizens, were suffering, hungry, and dying on an island who doesn’t have voting rights.

Food is rotting, power and communications is scarce. There are those outside of Puerto Rico still waiting to hear from loved ones and they don’t know if they’re dead, or just unable to communicate. I want to stress even though Puerto Rico itself is scrambling to get their people safe, protected and fed, their island has been devastated and resources limited. Think of having your toolbox swept away and rusting in the ocean along with all the things needed to be fixed. Refrigerators full of food but no power, and temperatures where digging a hole to create an old school icebox really isn’t going to do much to preserve the food long. Outside resources including clean water and safe food is needed to keep these people alive until they can rebuild.

Vox has an informative article about what’s happening and how to help. At the bottom of the article is a list of places you can donate to support Puerto Rico while America bitches over the right to kneel or stand during a racist anthem that third verse includes the line “No refuge could save the hireling and slave From the terror of flight, or the gloom of the grave.” The writer of the Star-Spangled Banner has been quoted as saying blacks are “…a distinct and inferior race of people, which all experience proves to be the greatest evil that afflicts a community.”

A note for the ego; when you can accept your ignorance without the reactions of shame, without the ego getting in the way screaming ‘I’m not a bad person; don’t judge me,’ as it lashes out to prevent feeling small, vulnerable and unloved, you can learn, move forward, and do something in response. We are all learning, we are all capable of being better, but it takes accepting that we don’t know it all in this moment first. We don’t need to perpetuate the same crimes just to keep from looking like an idiot; it has the opposite effect seen clearly from the outside.

May Ally Lee Steinfeld Find Peace

I only discovered this yesterday, and I feel like I’m in mourning for this beautiful trans girl. I don’t usually bring this stuff up in newsletters but my mind is here, my heart is here, breaking. The police are ignoring the hate crime aspect – society, authority, the supposed moral core who upholds our laws are ignoring the demented, hate filled purpose of why this 17 year old was killed in Missouri.

When it is ignored, it is allowed. An innocent lost her life after being tortured, mutilated and set on fire, and it is allowed because she was trans. Until it is recognized trans are being singled out and victimized for one reason, they exist seemingly different in a sea of unique individuals, there will be no justice. How can we educate when people won’t admit to the problem? How can we look to our police to protect us, when they ignore our cries for help?

I cannot find peace with this world but I truly hope Ally has. I don’t want to hold this pain and build it in the world; I don’t want to define the world by the worst. At the same time, I cannot ignore because ignoring allows. Mourning is all I have today for every teenager who fought to have a right to be who they are and shine and was stomped down for it. We all have a right to shine as we are, beautiful and unique.

Demon Bonded #10

The line between humanity and demon blurs…

Ky can’t catch a break. While trying to come to terms with the murder he helped commit, the wards to his house are broken into by a new master sorcerer. Stewart Moore is condescending, arrogant, and might be Ky’s hope or doom in his upcoming trial.

The Aeternum, a coven of demon summoners, has laid claim to Tobias’s demons and wand. If Ky can’t convince them he’s going to survive long enough to protect the seven lives he’s bonded to, the coven will forcefully take them.

Ky is betrayed when a new revelation concerning Anselm brings his entire existence into question.

There’s no one to turn to or trust when his only allies are the abused demons who exploit to survive. Ky is submerged in a world of murder, slavery, and sorcery with no way back to his old life. He’s not who he thought he was; he might have never been.

Each episode in this sexy, suspenseful gay monster harem serial is over 10,000 words, and should be read in order to be enjoyed fully.

The Android And The Thief – Wendy Rathbone

Will love set them free—or seal their fate?

In the sixty-seventh century, Trev, a master thief and computer hacker, and Khim, a vat-grown human android, reluctantly share a cell in a floating space prison called Steering Star. Trev is there as part of an arrangement that might finally free him from his father’s control. Khim, formerly a combat android, snaps when he is sold into the pleasure trade and murders one of the men who sexually assaults him. At first they are at odds, but despite secrets and their dark pasts, they form a pact—first to survive the prison, and then to escape it.

But independence remains elusive, and falling in love comes with its own challenges. Trev’s father, Dante, a powerful underworld figure with sweeping influence throughout the galaxy, maintains control over their lives that seems stronger than any prison security system, and he seeks to keep them apart. Trev and Khim must plan another, more complex escape, and this time make sure they are well beyond the law as well as Dante’s reach.


Baby For My Omega – Dex Bass

Alpha doctor Adam Albright and omega reporter Oscar Oliphant both need love. Each of them dreams about that special man for starting a family together. But their busy careers haven’t let them find what they deeply need.

Convinced that he can’t find an alpha to love him, Oscar checks in to MPreg Hospital for an artificial procedure to become pregnant. At the hospital, he meets Adam, and he knows they have something very special together.

Oscar knows there’s no way Adam could be single and working at MPreg Hospital. And even if Adam is single, there’s no way MPreg Hospital would allow Adam to love a patient. It can only end badly. Unless Adam risks everything he has for an omega who caught his eye and his heart.

Adam and Oscar’s love is too strong to be held back. They risk everything for love and fatherhood together.


The Struggle Within – Tyler May

Through Ryan’s trials, there are three different perspectives: a best friend watching from the outside, a lover desperate to get in, and his own mind.
His struggles were theirs. He just didn’t know it.
A tragic accident changed Dr. Ryan Jacobs’ life and freed him from a past he thought he’d never escape, but with that freedom came the realization: he could escape the man, but would be bound to the torturous battle within his mind. Fighting for control of his thoughts, he lived recklessly in a life of addiction and the next good time. Wearing a mask of deception, and hiding it beautifully behind his playboy ways, he fooled himself into thinking this was the real him, but he couldn’t fool everyone.
Dr. Michael Jonas considered Ryan more than just a friend, he was his family. With the support of his wife, Michael held Ryan’s hand, listened to him cry, and helped him through the hardest events of his life. He could see through the fake smiles and playboy attitude, seeing his best friend for the man he really was. After Michael’s wife had given birth to their first child, Michael vowed never to let pain affect his family again, Ryan included. But Michael carried his own burdens and watching Ryan struggle was harder than he thought. It tore him apart, silently, until there was only one choice. Save his best friend before it was too late.


Demon Bonded 10

Strays, Links And Demons

Episode #10. The line between humanity and demon blurs…

Ky can’t catch a break. While trying to come to terms with the murder he helped commit, the wards to his house are broken into by a new master sorcerer. Stewart Moore is condescending, arrogant, and might be Ky’s hope or doom in his upcoming trial.

The Aeternum, a coven of demon summoners, has laid claim to Tobias’s demons and wand. If Ky can’t convince them he’s going to survive long enough to protect the seven lives he’s bonded to, the coven will forcefully take them.

Ky is betrayed when a new revelation concerning Anselm brings his entire existence into question.

There’s no one to turn to or trust when his only allies are the abused demons who exploit to survive. Ky is submerged in a world of murder, slavery, and sorcery with no way back to his old life. He’s not who he thought he was; he might have never been.

Each episode in this sexy, suspenseful gay monster harem serial is over 10,000 words, and should be read in order to be enjoyed fully.
14,000+ wrds, Published September 29, 2017.
Heat level: X




on January 27, 2016

on September 13, 2017
OH MAH GAWD! This is one HELL of a sexy series!!! I was not only impressed by Sadie’s characters, but the sex is absolutely out of this world. I would have thought after reading MM books all these years that I couldn’t be completely turned on by a scene, but she did it. WOW!!! If you’re looking for something unique (characters are amazing) this is the series for you. I’m really, really looking forward to reading the rest of these amazing books!!


Ky stared blankly up at the ceiling where he was lying in bed. The gargoyles leered down at him from between his dark, damp strands of hair. His towel was strewn beside him, and he hadn’t bothered to dress. He didn’t feel like moving, didn’t feel like getting up, didn’t feel like anything. He didn’t know where Lovely and Feral were. He wasn’t sure if he was pissed off they disappeared when he had so many questions or if he was glad to be alone.

Probably the latter. It was too much of an effort to talk while he felt like this.

Everything was a mess. His mind was a dark buzz of something bordering misery if he could find the energy to feel even that. The fucked up thing was it had nothing to do with Tobias. It should have. If he had a fucking soul, he would feel something for helping to take a life. When he searched within, the most he felt was resigned.

It had to be done. Tobias did worse—so much worse—and would have continued to. Death came to everyone whether they were good, evil, or a fucked up sorcerer who killed the majority of the demons he summoned. If anyone was overdue to die, it was Tobias Godwin.

Ky’s melancholy had everything to do with his mountain of fuck ups, the biggest on the pile being Magnificent Night. With a sigh, he touched his collar and the links hanging there. There were so many now. It wasn’t that long ago when he was surprised to have Lovely’s jewel on the smooth leather. Now there were seven lives connected to him. Seven trapped souls were stuck in his care, and he had no fucking clue what to do.

He was so naive. Dumb, really. He was so fucking dumb. How many times did he nearly get himself killed just this fucking week? He trusted too easily and with beings who had no reason to return his trust. Anselm studied Magnificent Night for at least 200 years. He was chained for 200 years. For all the good Ky wanted for the Relics, really, why should they trust him? He was lucky Magnificent didn’t break his neck the first moment they met. He could have. He could have killed him and drained him as easily as any rat. Freed, a Requiem had the ability to take on an Overseer and win. Magnificent could have killed him, but he chose to feed from him instead.

The sex, the perceived affection; what did it mean to Magnificent? Ky might as well have fallen in love the moment he saw the beautiful Requiem. He sure as fuck lost his mind, if not his heart to a demon who refused to talk to him. It couldn’t have been the same for Magnificent Night. What was sex to a creature like him but a manipulation? A meal. It was much worse since being chained for 200 years. An obligation.

Screw the stupid baby sorcerer so he’ll set him free. Fuck him so he won’t leave him to die alone in the basement. Fuck him so he won’t beat him, or starve him, or kill him.

Ky sighed and rolled to his side. He threw his arm over his face to block the light from his eyes.

God, he was a monster. He was a damn naive child and Magnificent saw it clear enough. Hell, he couldn’t even be angry about it. Magnificent deserved to be free, not chained, enslaved or tortured by that Overseer Demencious. As for Lovely and Feral? It was probably the same, right? Why would it be different? Lovely made every move from the beginning. He needed power, he needed a sorcerer to help him kill Demencious, and Ky was the only one there.

What was he really expecting from beings so much stronger, faster, and smarter? Relics lived far longer and saw so much. Who was he to such perfect beings but a nuisance at best? A slave owner at worst. They must laugh at him every moment he wasn’t around.

Probably now. He was just the idiot who thought he was in love with strangers from another world. Three. Love for three, but he’d fuck any of them who showed an interest. He was the idiot for thinking he was more than food and a path to safety for a bunch of abused and frightened beings. He was such a fucking fool.

All the Relics wanted was to be free, and he chained them because of Magnificent’s power. It was just another sign of his weakness. Even when he tried to do his best, he just destroyed lives.

Ky sat up slowly and reached for the towel. He ruffled his hair to get the last of the water out as his thoughts continued their dark spiral. He needed to find a way to remove the bonds without harming the Relics or himself. There had to be a way. Tobias removed Liem’s link to Brave. There had to be a way to free them all from him. He’d find a way to break Magnificent’s chains, free the Relics from his collar, and they could go live their lives.

Maybe Lovely, Feral and Magnificent would want to live with Brave’s group. They could all have a home in Tobias’s mansion free of any humans telling them what to do.

Ky stood and slipped into a pair of fresh underwear. He went to the wardrobe and pulled out an only mildly slashed pair of black jeans. His fingers sought the holes, his eyes unseeing as he stared at the floor.

It would be best. He wasn’t cut out for this. Dumb. He was always so dumb. He hated it. If he were smarter, he’d be doing something real with his life instead of wasting it on an art degree. Maybe he would have started in a field where he’d be making money so his parents wouldn’t be struggling. They were paying for his college when he hadn’t even tried to get a job. He had to be a total asshole to think that a degree at a community college was somehow going to propel him to artistic stardom.

Ky sighed dejectedly as he pulled his jeans on. These thoughts weren’t necessarily new, but he couldn’t remember ever feeling them quite this completely. It was like his optimism and joy for life drained from him the same moment he discovered what the power Magnificent Night gave him really did. It made Relics think he was someone trustworthy, someone attractive, sexy, and irresistible. If they were foolish enough to have sex with him, they ended up bonded to him and trapped. Just another link on a sorcerer’s collar.

Monstrous. Every Relic he went near became a puppet to his new power. Ky could only hope if he did find a way to unlink Magnificent Night, the ability would leave him as well. No one as dumb as him should be allowed to have such an awful power.

Ky reached for a shirt the same moment he felt a strange flare shoot through the soles of his feet. “What the…?” He blinked down, then stumbled back as Feral and Lovely burst through the wardrobe.

“Someone crossed the wards.”

Ky’s confused gaze turned to Lovely and then to Feral, both of them tense and expectant. They were beautiful, warriors designed for better things than this. They deserved so much, and he was holding them back. He was keeping them trapped.

Lovely touched his shoulder, his violet and blue eyes piercing. “Ky, the wards are breached.”

It took him a moment to remember what a ward was, and then another to realize the repercussions of having someone cross through. Fuck, even now he was just an idiot. Ky shook himself as the seriousness of the situation sank in. “An Overseer?”

“Sorcerer. He’s crossed the wards but hasn’t destroy them. It’s a show of ability.” Lovely’s claws extended and his fangs grew sharper. His cat-like ears twitched as he tilted his head and listened to the noises of the house. “He’s downstairs with your parents.”

Fear stabbed through Ky, deep past his depression and apathy. Demencious targeted his parents last time; would a sorcerer do the same? Tobias, a master sorcerer, didn’t seen demons as human and had no problem killing them because of it. He knew Ky was a sorcerer and yet Tobias admitted to wanting to see the Relics kill him through the black link. When faced with powerless humans like his mother and father, Ky doubted such a man would hesitate to kill if it got him what he wanted.

Ky didn’t bother stopping for a shirt as he whirled from the wardrobe and ran to the dresser. He tucked Tobias’s wand in his back pocket and brandished Anselm’s in hand before he stalked to the bedroom door and threw it open.

Feral stopped him at the door frame. His brows were knit together, golden eyes stormy. “What are you doing, whelp? Thornes and I…”

“He broke into our house.” Ky pushed past the coyote demon and headed for the stairs. “If you don’t kill him, I will.”

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