Updates At A Glance

Current Writing Goals

Shiny Thief

PATB #2

Rework first draft

Demon Arms

PATB #1

Extensive rewrite

Demon Bonded

Episode #11

#6, #7

Hellcat

Book #2

Outline/draft

Awakening

Book #1

draft ending

June 20

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Arted (because I verb shit)
Don’t think it’s an infection. I really wanted it to be one, then I re-exposed myself to the damn allergen that’s been triggering me, and yeah, it’s not an infection. Seeing a dentist today. Maybe they’ll have a clue. @[email protected]

Finished this Ky and Magnificent Night pic. I think it came out decent enough for my first official art in, like… ugh.  4 years. Making a vid to show people how I painted it. And maybe to remind myself. >_> My fuck, my face hurts. No sleep today.

June 19

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I Think I’m Getting Better…
I don’t want to get ahead of myself here. I started treating the pain as if it was sourced in an infection instead of allergies. Apparently when your body inflames for an infection, allergies can exacerbate it and make things really confusing. So yeah, I just started about 24 hours ago (raw garlic eaten and place in broken tooth and ear) and my body is responding to the treatment, and inflammation has dropped significantly.

I’m both better and yet still in pain. I’m not sure how long this is going to take–two months of this attacking my jaw probably doesn’t mean immediate relief. But I felt well enough to get a little writing done, so my hopes are high that I’ll be back to human soon enough. It also makes me wonder how human. If this was all an infection, then I really have no clue how my body reacts when healthy now that I discovered the dopamine connection. I’m pretty damn excited to find out once this all clears up.

June 12

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Writing Badly
I think it’s the answer for now. There is a proud, stubborn voice inside of me who demands I write the best I can and knows just what that looks like. Unfortunately, my body is broken and my current situation cannot give that voice what it wants. I need to write–I need to find that escape in my mind from the shit of the real world. Expect a lot of drafts from me for a while. It will be something until I can get my brain and body back to a place of moderate balance. Otherwise, I fear this will turn into some depression based writer’s block, and I have no interest in that bs.

June 11

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Check in
I hurt, babes. A lot. It’s off and on, about 1/2 hour to hour of sanity, and then the pain starts up again. Feels like my jaw, neck, and tongue all fused together in an acidic fiery stew of misery. It involves a lot of pacing, and rocking, repeating phrases and swearing like a motherfuck because fuck this pain.

It is extremely difficult to focus on words, especially the ‘right’ words, at the moment. I’m running on 6 hours sleep the last 3 days. I’m sorry updates have been, well, nonexistent. Don’t give up on me. I know this will pass–I’m not living like this. Fuck that. I will find a solution. Currently I’m just going off the dopamine precursors. They stop the Parkinson’s symptoms, but my fuck, pretty sure it’s also the source of this pain, so we’ll see. I’m waiting on my doctor’s appointment. Hopefully she knows something about low dopamine. Hoping for a dopamine receptor agonist. We’ll see.

I’m arting… sort of. It probably looks like shit. My ability to perceive is very limited through the pain atm. But it’s something to focus on. Need focus.

June 6

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Demon Bonded episode #11 cover!
I did a Ky cover. I never do those (mostly cus I like to play with all the wings. XD) This is my cocky protest cover. I know, very symbolic but eh, unless I can hire a lawyer or some shit, there is very little I can do to help these authors fight besides show my support.

Okay, babes, I’m slowly coming back to reality. The course of antibiotics I took are now officially done, so here’s hoping the infection is dead. Uh, just finished writing up scene 5 of episode 11. I want to have the last scene… possibly 2 or 3 now that I look at it–this episode is long, and paced as an in-between for the next episode where we plop Ky right in the middle of the Aeternum. I’m shooting for 20,000 words just because I can, and I really want to have that little piercing ritual in there. Maybe the transition of the morning when he’s dressing for the meeting…

So yeah, hoping to have that all done and published by the weekend just so long as my allergies don’t fuck me over again. Waiting on a new mask and filter to come in the mail–hopefully that will help. I’m not a fan of wearing the damn thing 24-7 (I have slept in this freaking mask) but it’s way better than whatever the hell it is my body goes through when I breathe the wrong stuff. =_=

June 4

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Exclusive’ button
I added a new button/download option for many of the books. In the same sense that Amazon won’t take Paypal, some other sites are Paypal specific, and for some readers it makes things very difficult. So if you don’t want to buy the books from Amazon or Payhip or Smashwords or whatever, you can now get them through the website with the option of paying with paypal or debit/credit. They currently have the old covers, and it’s set up in a way that when I edit the old books, and update the files, you can download the new version without repaying. So yeah, that.

Exhausted. Spent the weekend cleaning out the garage to move the cat stuff in there, building a fence and, lets face it, just being sick. I’m afraid this is one of those situations where until I get the environment I’m in livable, I won’t be able to do anything else. I’ve already lost a week of writing, and I’m beyond pissed off–and kinda just full of despair about it all. I drove away today. I drove myself to a park and told myself I’d get some writing done, just be okay for a few fucking hours. I didn’t want to go home–I wanted to never go back there. But I did go home, and I got slower, and slower, and then my arms didn’t want to move and I was stuck in my seat, my brain active while I observed my body falling asleep without my consent.

I can’t afford to up and leave this place. I need to get some sort of solution. But for now, the despair has certainly slipped in.

June 1

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Feeling Better
I’m back to finishing up Demon Bonded episode… what is it now.. 11, I think. I will get this scene fleshed out the way it deserves. It’s been difficult to really get a feel for Magnificent just yet–well, besides him being kinda crazy atm. Uh, yeah. My brain is working (just tired atm.) I’m fighting an infection but that’s it. Thought my kidneys were doing a death flail for a moments–that scared the fuck out of me–but nope, I’m apparently just dealing with a UTI, which looking back has been bothering me for weeks, and my body has otherwise kicked that ammonia situation in the ass.

I didn’t realize I was taking my new health for granted until it basically failed overnight. I woke up with my back and leg screaming pain, that damn arm and neck weakness, shuffling step, and overwhelming fatigue hitting me full force plus chills. If it wasn’t for the new loss of urination, I would have assumed it was allergies again. My body’s default for ‘sick’ seems to be all these crappy reactions now. It was like I was back over 4 years ago when I suddenly was hit with what we thought was Lyme and I thought I was dying. It felt that bad because through it all my brain was so damn sharp and aware. No checking out. I forgot how it took a good year of being bed bound before I started noticing the loss of brain function too. All those damn mind puzzles I did just to prove my brain was still there. Funny how we survive and cope and keep living just so long as we hold on…

Eh, anyways, I seem to have sprung right back to my chipper self like it didn’t even happen. A little fatigue but I’m otherwise fine. Staying cautious so as not to overtax my body. My birthday is coming up. I think I’m just feeling my mortality extra as a result of all this shit. It’ll pass–it always does. I’m turning 36 and feel the best I have in years. I guess with my luck I’m just expecting it all to go to shit at this point. >_< Let’s just ignore that critical bitch voice, eh? XD

May 28

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Sorry,  been really sick
Working on it. Sorry. Everything hurts. Uh… Yeah. So the house is like filled with cat urine including the protein allergen contained in it. I thought it was coming through the basement floor–the previous tenant abandoned their cat in the house before we moved in and the poor thing used the entire basement for a liter box. I guess concrete can absorb and then release stuff like that whenever because urine doesn’t breakdown like other things do. So sealing the raw concrete hoping to stop that, except it looks like what really happened is the cats pissed on the AC unit outside. @[email protected] So we turned the AC on and it just flooded the house. Like gassed, chemical warfare, my brain is fried and I’m kinda a crazy person as a moment. My brain feels like it’s sparking.

The ozone machine isn’t working right–maybe it can’t handle this level. Uh, my room is okay but every time I leave for the bathroom or kitchen even with the mask on, it’s bad. Nearly done painting the basement concrete and… oh, hit the AC unit with a urine eater enzyme so I’m hoping that will take out the worst of it. My brain is not here right now… Just, everything hurts. I’ve nearly got the next scene of Demon Bonded done but yeah, I just can’t focus. Working my ass off to fix this allergy source and think again. Sorry again. (This is the line. Never having cats again. Ever. I cannot live like this no matter how much I love the fluffballs. T_T I feel like an asshole, but seriously, why would they piss on the fucking AC unit outside? WTF?!)

Hope everyone had a nice weekend and not dealing with this kind of shit.

May 26

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Ehh… so probably next week
Sorry guys. I really wanted to get episode 11 done this week–seriously thought it was going to happen. But that weird jaw/ear/neck/face/teeth pain came back. It’s been fucking shit the last few days. In some ways I feel the best I have in, like, forever, but then add in screaming pain on top of it for no discernible reason. I think it’s becoming more manageable the last six hours, but it does this thing where it’s quiet for hours and then suddenly flares like a total bitch and I have no clue why.

Anyways, goals are still the same, just I have no control over this pain bs and finding it harder to judge my writing as I go. @[email protected] Plodding through. The only way is forward.

May 23

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Decided I’m feeling cocky and going to finish Demon Bonded ep. 11 this week
While I’m in the groove, let’s get this baby done!

May 22

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Demon Bonded Coven Saga Scenes #2+3
So after all the damn coding and eye bleeding, I decided to spend some time on Demon Bonded. I’m actually into scene 4 but I won’t be coming back to it until I get the next part of Shiny Thief done–or the weekend muse hits me. Whatever.

Ah, I’m excited! I want to show Justin’s crazy wolf this time around right before the full moon. Squee, he’s going to be so fun!

May 17

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Changes Everywhere @[email protected]
Whoo, did an update of the site to reflect the new changes. For those who missed the newsletter, I’m focusing on 3 main series–but I’m adding Awakening in there too, so yeah, totally not taking on too much. XD We’re looking at The Paranormal Academy For Troubled Boys, Hellcat, and the two freebies made possible by Patreon support, Demon Bonded and Awakening. These are all fairly long series except Hellcat, which is more of a hot, dirty indulgence of 3 to possibly 4 books depending on if I want to go epic with some sort of war or some shit. Yeah, I know, I go and write a story for the sexy moments and then I get sucked into plot. Bad, Sadie. XD

Got new, shiny Wallpapers for you guys! A little reorganization of pages and menus. Oh, the Discord Fan Chat is now under the Free tab too! Currently writing up the next scene of Demon Bonded and I’m hoping to have that ready tonight. And of course, fiddling a little more with the website. I want to get stories together under series to make it easy to find shit.

The last few weeks I’ve been battling exhaustion, to put it bluntly. It’s that whole mold interference with dopamine transporters thing (science!) I feel like I’m finally reaching a balance as I break down what is in chocolate that’s been keeping me going when dopamine precursors alone haven’t. I didn’t nap even once yesterday, and although I’m still battling some mild brain fog, it’s nothing like I was dealing with a year ago. I think I’ve definitely tracked down the main issues and solutions with this long term battle *fingers crossed* and I’m totally excited to have the energy to do all things I’ve been dreaming of doing–like finishing Sorcerer Slayer already! <3

May 11

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Cover Update
One down. After looking at covers in similar genres, realized the background was fighting far too much for attention instead of just setting ambiance. Gotta say, glad I went for the scales. They really made Wylie look like Wylie. <3

May 10

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Cover Update
It’s getting there. Still a lot to do on this. I’m debating if I try to actually draw in Wylie’s scales on his arms or not. The last time–lol, so very long ago–they ended up looking so weird because of it. But I may be able to fiddle and give the impression of sharp, pointy scales instead of going full out realism that might just clash…

I’m glad I redid the logo thing. I wanted the dragon version to work but it just looked too busy, too kiddish, and I was afraid the book would be mistaken for young adult. Difficult enough to try to design something new adult action/adventure paranormal than my wonderful default of shirtless sexy men. XD

Whoo, I think seasonal allergies have made their way into my house (or the cats dragged them in while murdering something fluffy. >_>) Either way, I’ve been sleeping the day away. It wasn’t until I shut myself in my room that I realized what was happening. No, I’m not tired; I’m allergic to life. XD

May 8

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Sorcerer Slayer!
So much happening. Okay, nearly got the full outline all sorted with all 3 Sorcerer Slayer books. Just needs more fleshing out. I’m picking at that draft of Scene #8 and I have a feeling I’m going to be rewriting it all over again. There is way too much information and it feels really out of focus. I was thinking of adding a scene later on with Michael trying to get Raider settled in but I like the idea of Raider’s fever fueling a lot of his jumps to conclusions atm… So much to balance.

But I’m loving how the next scenes are going to play out once I clean up #8. So much smoother (less of that weird back and forth with Vince jumping around.) And the shifter flu being spread will make much more sense than feel like it was forced. This will be a far better reason to have Raider terrified of the others instead of it all being in his head.

Skipped the Newsletter this weekend. Too much happening at home. I need to find a way to balance writing and living, and I think actually taking a break on the weekends is going to help. I’m trying to paint my room (finally.) I organized the kitchen–I’m decluttering like a motherfuck all over the place. Too much dirt and clutter. Lol, and I actually bought a bed frame! No more sliding on a mattress on the floor for me.

May 4

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Demon Arms Rewrite #2!
It is so weird to see Demon Arms with fresh eyes–lol, or a working brain in this case. It’s funny, cuz I know there’s a learning curve, but I never blame it on that. I’m always just thinking, oh, I was so fucked by mold I didn’t notice I had written a first draft instead of a novel. I was limited by view; view of the world as I knew it, view through senses so damn weakened in a dying body, view filtered through expectations.

I’ve been kicking my ass a lot, frustrated I’m working every damn day at this writing job but I’m not gaining the speed I had before. Looking at Demon Arms, I can see how blind that mentality is. I wasn’t putting the work in back then. I wasn’t putting the details in, the plotting in. I had ideas for it, sure, but I thought words–any words–were enough. I was rushing through writing drafts, not finished books.

I need to find a financial situation where I don’t have to rush. Ha, that might be the biggest joke in all this, because I know for a fact it’s not quality that sells a book, it’s having a book done and there to be sold. It is a luxury to take my time and write the way I believe the story should be told, and it might bite me on the ass in the long run. But I don’t care. This is what I live for; stretching my brain, pushing limits, and discovering those little epiphanies that make the chore of writing into a joy of expression. I want to make a story breathe, not just sit there on a page/screen.

It might make me an asshole to think I can mix that creative sentiment with hard fucking. XD Lol, then I’m an asshole.

May 2

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Outlining Silverbane!
A mild deviation from Shiny Thief. I’m looking for a more commercial friendly outlining and drafting process. I’m not happy with having to go back and rewrite, basically. XD I want to find a way to get the majority of the creative work done in the first steps, repeat this process as many times as needed until I have a workable outline to build off of. A working blueprint instead of a half assed sketch so I won’t have to go back changing everything.

I plan on doing this with Hellcat 2, the next 2 Sorcerer Slayer books, finishing up Awakening and Shifter Safe Haven too. So yeah, a lot of outline and draft work will be popping up side by side with the Shiny Thief rewrites. Ideally, once I’m done with the final edits of Shiny Thief, I’ll have the outline for the next book ready to fill out just like that.

  • Maike

    Hi
    To have a site with updates ist great 😁
    But could it be possible to mark which updates are also for free members and which not?

    • Sadie Sins

      Ooh, absolutely! That’s a wonderful idea and when I post today, I’ll be clear about it. Thank you, Maike! <3

  • DeAunna Thomas

    Do you have a sequel in mind for the Troubled Boys Series? I really loved the first one and am anxiously anticipating the next.

    • Sadie Sins

      Hi, DeAunna! Sorcerer Slayer is actually the sequel to Demon Arms, which I’m in the process of writing now. You can read as I go here. http://www.sadiesinsbooks.com/the-library/sorcerer-slayer/ After that I have… oh… at least four more books in the series. I love the Academy world, and characters, and have far too many plans for them all. XD Sorcerer Slayer is focused on Fox and Vincent and introduces Raider, who gets a book later with someone I refuse to name just yet. 😀 I’m really hoping to get Sorcerer Slayer done sooner rather than later. I keep trying to bully myself into finishing it up but it’s stubbornly going at its own pace.

  • Yay! Congrats on making it to scene 50!! \o/

    • Sadie Sins

      Thank you! o^.^o I’m so excited to watch this story unfold.

  • I was dying for these updates, thank you Sadie <3! And hooray for the artist cover, I hope it'll work! *cross fingers*

    • gabs

      Me too! I’m really excited about it but I don’t want to get my hopes up. Hopes are so difficult. XD

  • megu

    *test the new comment section*
    Your website’s design update looks so nice Sadie! You did an amazing job <3 you deserve tones of sleep now!

    • Lol, thank you, hun. *glomp* I won’t go into how I was up another 2 hrs after cuz of the stupid blog widget showing up on non-blog pages and half my book links breaking. @[email protected] But it’s done! For now. >_<

  • Ugh, I totally understand the stress you’re going through and the “what if I fail” feeling. It’s like, my everyday life. But still, you’re a talented writer and I hope your work will be noticed even without Amazon. *hug* Regarding the prices, it breaks my heart to read that you’d lower to 1.99$. Even 2.99$ is so cheap… T_T Well, the good thing is that you can earn royalties with Pronoun.
    Take care of your health dear, I’m getting really worried!
    (Oh I’ve finished reading DB Demencious saga and I loved it!! Gonna read Apprentice asap<3)

    • Oh, hun, you’re such an amazing artist. *hug* I don’t understand the world some days. It seems to be less about talent and just waiting to be noticed among a sea of many. It’s tough to be an introvert in this field. I think it’s tough to be your own damn cheerleader when it comes to the insecurities that go hand in hand with the creative field.

      I’m better today. I’m doing the price research still; I just went back onto the other platforms and $2.99 seems like such a staple, I’m not sure if I wouldn’t stand out as ‘low quality’ with a lower price tag. There are so many ways to approach this stuff, it’s just finding the right strategy. I feel like the subscription site has the best stability long term so I need to see how that works in this new step.

  • Sadie I’m so so so excited to read more about SS, I miss the guyyyys <3

    • Me too! It already feels more vibrant and energetic vs this kind of slow decay of energy that was going to happen if I continued the way I was going. Hoping to have a scene ready tonight of SS, plus one of Intangible.

      Funny how you can have these wonderful plans, clutch to them like they’re important, and then throw them out the window for the better. Not even the outline, but I’ve been fighting this bitch of an idea that because I can write a certain amount of words in a certain amount of time, that those words are going to be a novel, and it will be perfect first time around, and it should just be accepted as such. But unless the characters step up and do their thing, that shit never happens. Expectations are such a battle in creativity yet so hard to let go. I guess it really does take as long as it takes. *blah* XD

      • Haha I completely understand. Sometimes you’re so proud of planning your story, thinking it’ll be like that, and like this. And then everything changes! But I believe it’s for better, yes. Plus it’s your characters, they tend to be the ones that decide. 8’D
        Anyway, I’m so hyped for SS. o/

  • Shawna White

    Hey, Do you know when the next demon volume 2 will be out? I got one and I’m excited to read the rest.

    • Hey, Shauna. So… I’m assuming you mean Demon Arms? Or are we talking Demon Bonded Collection? I’ll answer for both, just in case. <3

      Okay, so the Demon Arms sequel, Sorcerer Slayer, I'm hoping will be ready by December depending on editing, cover artist, etc. It's a lose goal because I don't want to rush it and ruin the book. Demon Bonded Collection #2, which is the Apprentice Saga will be definitely republished by next month. I just need to find the time to make a cover around all the other stuff I'm doing. I'll be working on Coven Saga as I go along; I refuse to let so much time fall between episodes again. Hope that answered your question, and if it didn't, feel free to ask away. Great to hear from you!

  • A++ for the draft idea Sadie!

    • Thanks, Megu. <3 I've been ruminating on the draft idea for ages, unsure if anyone would want to read something 'unfinished.' I guess it took a while to remind myself most of the stuff I wrote while sick was not the best, yet people still enjoyed it and I need to put my ego aside and just get the story out. I think this is going to open up me being able to write more and feel far less guilt when I go on Sorcerer Slayer binges and can post Demon Bonded drafts kind of thing.

  • Dale

    You can airbrush on canvas. A gessoed canvas is not as absorbent as paper so you would need to be sanded with very fine sandpaper to give a smooth eggshell surface.

    • Hey, Dale! Do you airbrush at all? Ugh, I forgot 1) how much I like smooth surfaces and 2) how much I hate gessoing and sanding. What a chore, and a total oxymoron to get the result I love, a smooth surface. I actually have these little acid free comic book boards that I was painting on for a bit cuz they were so smooth. Fabric does seem to be the way to go big. Paper is just wood pulp at a very fine grain… I do wonder if there could be a way to spray a paper finish (mixed with some sort of adhesive) that could give you the absorbency enjoyed as a final surface on larger areas. It might be a fun project idea…

      • Dale

        I actually blow glass, occasionally paint with acrylics and oils and even stained glass. A good friend of mine with whom I have lost contact with used to airbrush. He airbrushed on several different types of surfaces. I myself have never had the chance to try it. I did spend time while he worked and basically explained the differences and techniques that he accomplished.

  • With Leo. Please Please Please I need a sex scene with Leo!! XD

  • Omg I’m so excited about this sexy Raider fics!! I can’t wait to see Vincent’s reactions about Raider going after him ahah.
    Edited or not, I still have lots of scenes of Hellcat to catch up reading! @[email protected]

    • Seriously have the outline for a Raider x Leo fic too. It’s a little… furry. XD Just a little. Plan on writing them both the next couple weeks.

  • Take care Sadie T_T hope you’ll be all good soon! *hug*

    • *hug* I’m feeling better already, hun. I’m actually doing the final Hellcat edit right now. <3

  • Can’t wait to read Hellcat! I’ve read the first chapters but stopped when you were doing the drafts and editing, I wanted to read the final result all at once *bless herself for her patience lol*
    And woot for SS!! I’m so so excited to read about Vincent and the others ;___; <3 I miss them so much!

    • Hey, it’s all done! You can read finally. XD Lol, you know I’m usually not the type to rewrite a book like that. Usually my edits are pretty small. But I think it was worth the extra work.

      Sorcerer Slayer! I’m so excited, I can’t wait to get back to it. I just have to run the final draft of Hellcat through text to speech to catch any mess ups and I’m fixing the cover today, and once everything is formatted (whoo, almost done, almost @[email protected]) I can finally get back to the Academy guys. Super happy! <3

  • I’m so happy to see you so fired up Sadie! Go go go you can do it!! ♥

    • I’m so freaking excited! XD Lol, it’s going to be so cool by the time it’s all done. I wish it was done now though! @[email protected] I have no patience when I’m like this.